We're one week away from the playday. Yes, it's happening in Chicago but that doesn't mean if you're not in Chicago you can't participate. The props we're going to play with in the workshop next Wednesday are what is in my notebook and whatever is on this blog (including ideas hidden within simple words and images. So now's the time to fill up the hat with those rolled up scraps of thoughts and shards of images, moments, people, sounds, dreams, experiences. Help me both condense what we already have growing here as well as add new complementary personal ingredients to the mix so that our recipe can be complete (and collaborative) for us to try out in the first workshop.
Ingredients for the virtual play:
(feel free to list or ramble)
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
Monday, December 3, 2007
What's on yer minds?
After a healthy respite from all deadlines, I'm back with renewed energy for play. Hope you guys still want to play with me!
For those of you in Chicago, Scott and I are going to have a workshop on December 19 at DePaul to play with the bits and pieces we've come up with so far and create more. I'm looking forward to working with some real live people in person and to getting as many of you whom I hardly get to see anymore together in one room. That's going to be exciting. For those of you who can't make it, I hope you'll offer your thoughts here on the blog as we prepare for the playday and then after as we distill it.
As a way of checking back in and seeing what new fodder we might unearth, I was hoping you'd all write a little bit from your own lives and give a glimpse of what's rolling around in your minds these days. It can be related to themes from the play or it can be totally random. Let's just get stuff flowing!
Here's something that's on my mind these days: pharmaceutical ads for mental illnesses. You know the signs on public transportation or in magazines that ask you if you're fatigued, lonely, anxious, depressed,experiencing mood swings, etc? I HATE those ads. Of course, we're all all of those things and it's not because we're crazy... it's because we're human and we're sane...we feel! I can't help but wonder how those ads are affecting the mentality of our society. Once our own sense of sanity starts being chipped away, we don't have much power left. I can't help but think about Brave New World. I hope you've all read that book...
For those of you in Chicago, Scott and I are going to have a workshop on December 19 at DePaul to play with the bits and pieces we've come up with so far and create more. I'm looking forward to working with some real live people in person and to getting as many of you whom I hardly get to see anymore together in one room. That's going to be exciting. For those of you who can't make it, I hope you'll offer your thoughts here on the blog as we prepare for the playday and then after as we distill it.
As a way of checking back in and seeing what new fodder we might unearth, I was hoping you'd all write a little bit from your own lives and give a glimpse of what's rolling around in your minds these days. It can be related to themes from the play or it can be totally random. Let's just get stuff flowing!
Here's something that's on my mind these days: pharmaceutical ads for mental illnesses. You know the signs on public transportation or in magazines that ask you if you're fatigued, lonely, anxious, depressed,experiencing mood swings, etc? I HATE those ads. Of course, we're all all of those things and it's not because we're crazy... it's because we're human and we're sane...we feel! I can't help but wonder how those ads are affecting the mentality of our society. Once our own sense of sanity starts being chipped away, we don't have much power left. I can't help but think about Brave New World. I hope you've all read that book...
Monday, November 12, 2007
impromtu chat (gretchen and justin)
Molly and Danny were both online last week and decided to chat. There's some good stuff in it, but I'm just going to post my favorite bit because it takes me so long to edit out the weird spaces and times. I think I'm going to do this for all of the chats from now on.
Thanks for the impromptu skyping guys! I hope this fad catches! It's be great if more people chatted on their own time and kept generating material.
Oh, and for the record, the Facebook page is officially out of date. Elliot is dead. For sure.
gretchen
i know. i kinda wish i had known him better
justin
yeah. me too. he was kind of a wacky kid. it would be
interesting to find out what was going on in his head.
gretchen
yeah. i tried talking to him once or twice, but he
never really said much
justin
wouldn't that be a thing, to be able to be someone
else for a little while. like step into their life
gretchen
that'd be weird. i don't know who i'd want to be...
justin
john malkovich, maybe?
gretchen
haha maybe
justin
it would be cool to be someone totally different. like
i'm not saying that i'd always want to be someone
else. but have a life like Indiana Jones or Steve
Irwin. You know, someone who does something exciting.
i want to do something exciting
gretchen
body thief! you'd just go around living other peoples
lives for a day?
justin
well why not? wouldn't you want to do something cool
like that?
gretchen
i suppose. would the people get their bodies back
after? what happens to them when you take over? do
they get your body?
justin
hmm i guess i didn't think about that. maybe you just
disappear into limbo until you're done being that
other person.
gretchen
oooh. interesting. what happens to your body then when
you leave it?
justin
it goes into limbo too and then reappears where you
left it
gretchen
is that possible? a material object (such as your
body) existing in limbo?
justin
sure why not? It's, like stored on an interdimensional
external hardrive until it's needed.
gretchen
hmmm... maybe. limbo with a hardrive... i can see it
justin
well i should probably hit the old dusty trail. you
know i've got to get up early tomorrow and...... i
dunno.... do stuff.
gretchen
alright. if you must.
Thanks for the impromptu skyping guys! I hope this fad catches! It's be great if more people chatted on their own time and kept generating material.
Oh, and for the record, the Facebook page is officially out of date. Elliot is dead. For sure.
gretchen
i know. i kinda wish i had known him better
justin
yeah. me too. he was kind of a wacky kid. it would be
interesting to find out what was going on in his head.
gretchen
yeah. i tried talking to him once or twice, but he
never really said much
justin
wouldn't that be a thing, to be able to be someone
else for a little while. like step into their life
gretchen
that'd be weird. i don't know who i'd want to be...
justin
john malkovich, maybe?
gretchen
haha maybe
justin
it would be cool to be someone totally different. like
i'm not saying that i'd always want to be someone
else. but have a life like Indiana Jones or Steve
Irwin. You know, someone who does something exciting.
i want to do something exciting
gretchen
body thief! you'd just go around living other peoples
lives for a day?
justin
well why not? wouldn't you want to do something cool
like that?
gretchen
i suppose. would the people get their bodies back
after? what happens to them when you take over? do
they get your body?
justin
hmm i guess i didn't think about that. maybe you just
disappear into limbo until you're done being that
other person.
gretchen
oooh. interesting. what happens to your body then when
you leave it?
justin
it goes into limbo too and then reappears where you
left it
gretchen
is that possible? a material object (such as your
body) existing in limbo?
justin
sure why not? It's, like stored on an interdimensional
external hardrive until it's needed.
gretchen
hmmm... maybe. limbo with a hardrive... i can see it
justin
well i should probably hit the old dusty trail. you
know i've got to get up early tomorrow and...... i
dunno.... do stuff.
gretchen
alright. if you must.
Tuesday, November 6, 2007
When am I real?
So, "what is real" turned out to be a bit too nebulous a question. Even I was struggling with how to answer that. Hopefully this is a bit more specific and personal. I think it just might be the central question of the play, as well as being the root of the first question. All of the characters have different reasons for asking this question... Justin, as he tries to differentiate himself from the society that has molded him; Reul as she returns from her after-life experience in the cosmos which I imagine felt more real than anything on Earth; Noelle as she notices the differences in how she interacts with her old friends and with her new ones - especially those she talks with in another language; Sam as he embarks further and further into the virtual world, under the guise of Elliot's virtual persona, Bolo... and on and on.
But, in an effort to be real and to really explore this question, I thought we could drop the characters for a bit and open up discussion about our own relationship to that question. Afterall, this play is really about us and for us.
So, I'll go first. I struggle with this question a lot. Especially when I'm writing. It's so obvious to me when I write things that aren't real. They sound contrived. They feel empty. They don't excite me. They're just words put together in a crafty fashion and there's no life behind him, just fancy ideas. As I've been working on this play recently and pushing for a deadline which would get it accepted into a high-profile festival, I've typed a lot of things that haven't felt real and I've gotten really frustrated, erased them and stared at a blank screen for hours. I realized the other day that pushing for this deadline was causing me to not be real. It was undermining the reason I write in the first place which is to connect with other people, and in this case, to connect with you guys and to let our connection lead the play where it will. Upon realizing this, I decided to let go of the deadline and to reorder my priorities. Immediately, I felt more real again. I felt happier and more whole as a person. I got excited about this project again and realized that while we've figured out a lot for this play, what we really need is to get to know each other again because certainly we've all changed since the last play... aren't we changing all the time? And right now as I'm writing to you, I am real. I feel honest and clear-intentioned. I feel like all of the different aspects of myself are aligned and I'm excited again, even about these simple words I'm typing.
I think one aspect of me being real is dependent on being aware of my own intentions and not losing sight of them in the face of deadlines and opportunity.
I also know that I'm real when I'm doing really simple things like baking cookies, walking in the sunshine, holding a baby, playing with an animal, dancing... things that connect my body with the space outside of it and with the space inside of it, that thing we might call the soul.
How about you?
But, in an effort to be real and to really explore this question, I thought we could drop the characters for a bit and open up discussion about our own relationship to that question. Afterall, this play is really about us and for us.
So, I'll go first. I struggle with this question a lot. Especially when I'm writing. It's so obvious to me when I write things that aren't real. They sound contrived. They feel empty. They don't excite me. They're just words put together in a crafty fashion and there's no life behind him, just fancy ideas. As I've been working on this play recently and pushing for a deadline which would get it accepted into a high-profile festival, I've typed a lot of things that haven't felt real and I've gotten really frustrated, erased them and stared at a blank screen for hours. I realized the other day that pushing for this deadline was causing me to not be real. It was undermining the reason I write in the first place which is to connect with other people, and in this case, to connect with you guys and to let our connection lead the play where it will. Upon realizing this, I decided to let go of the deadline and to reorder my priorities. Immediately, I felt more real again. I felt happier and more whole as a person. I got excited about this project again and realized that while we've figured out a lot for this play, what we really need is to get to know each other again because certainly we've all changed since the last play... aren't we changing all the time? And right now as I'm writing to you, I am real. I feel honest and clear-intentioned. I feel like all of the different aspects of myself are aligned and I'm excited again, even about these simple words I'm typing.
I think one aspect of me being real is dependent on being aware of my own intentions and not losing sight of them in the face of deadlines and opportunity.
I also know that I'm real when I'm doing really simple things like baking cookies, walking in the sunshine, holding a baby, playing with an animal, dancing... things that connect my body with the space outside of it and with the space inside of it, that thing we might call the soul.
How about you?
Monday, November 5, 2007
Justin's letter to Sam
Commissioned to me by Janis- this is a letter to Sam from Justin explaining where he thinks his life is just going. Just a little something. -Ty
Sam,
This might be the first time I’ve written to you through a letter besides that time in seventh grade when I wrote you that letter about how I had a crush on that girl you had that middle school “relationship” thing with. I can’t even remember her name. So you should probably mark this as one of those special times when your best friend writes you a letter. It’s special, no?
I’m going to try and get straight to the point, but I want you to know that you’re really important to me, Sam. And that means that it’s really important that you see and understand where I’m coming from and why I’m doing what I am doing- because I feel like there’s nothing else that I could do. (All of this will make sense once I stop beating around the bush).
I think it’s great that you are having a good time at school. If you are doing something that makes you happy, then I think that’s a great thing. Not enough people do what makes them happy, which is sort of what I’ve been figuring out lately. And I think that to a certain extent, I’ve been one of those people. I feel like all through high school I did what I needed to get by. I wasn’t really a spectacular student. I did alright, though- it’s not like I really got bad grades. But I feel like I wasn’t really applying myself because there was nothing that I felt was worthwhile enough to spend the time and energy applying myself to it, you know? I think you already kind of know this. We’ve talked about stuff like this here and there over the years, so I guess you probably have a good grasp already on where I feel like I’m coming from.
Here’s the thing, dude…lately I’ve needed to make some life decisions that are pretty important. I made my first one by going to school in the city, and that’s where I went wrong. So I’ve made a few decisions since them. I haven’t been going to school for a while, actually. I can’t do it anymore. Each day, I’ve gone out somewhere and done things that have really made me feel alive, and more importantly, things that make me appreciate feeling that way. It’s something that I don’t think a lot of people do (but maybe more people should).
I worked myself into a rut with college. I shouldn’t have gone in the first place, and I definitely know I can’t go back. At least, not at this point in my life. Maybe one day I will decide that college is the best thing for me, but for now, I feel that college is a bad place for me to be in. In school, I’m wasting my life. Each hour I sit in class is one hour that I could be doing something that really matters, something that makes me gain a new perspective on life or maybe understand some new emotion that I’ve never felt before, or a familiar emotion that I could be feeling in a completely new way.
A while back, shortly after I stopped going to school, I went to the city and instead I picked flowers for Gretchen. There were so many of them- they all looked completely different, up close. You never really notice how unique dandelions are until you have about two hundred of them and you can see how different each one is. I had enough dandelions for each path that I could take in my life. You might think that picking two hundred dandelions was a waste of time, especially considering I could have been going to school. But I seriously disagree. Picking those flowers was a beautiful experience, and so was giving them to Gretchen. I would never give that up.
I know that everybody needs a plan. I know that that’s what you would say to me if you were hear and I was telling you this in person. Until recently, college was my plan. What I was going to do in college was (and still is) completely beyond me. I had no idea why I was there- there really wasn’t anything I wanted to learn there. But now that I’m out of school, I’m noticing how many opportunities there are for me.
I think I want to be a writer. I’ve written stories all my life and it’s always something that’s made me feel really good about myself. I think it’s important to feel good about myself. You’ve always encouraged me when I’ve shared my writings with you, and everyone always tells me that my stuff is good. I decided to trust them and think that maybe they’re right.
Without college, I could really do something with my life. I could travel the country, or even the world, and gain new understandings and inspirations that I never could have gotten from a classroom or a lecture hall. It seems to me that if I stayed in college, I could come out with a job and a really stable life and that would be it. But as a writer, I have the potential to be remembered forever. I know that I probably won’t, but I don’t care- it’s how you believe in yourself, and what you think you are capable of that really matters, and I really think I could make a difference with my writings. If the only things tying me down in life were the things that I specifically chose to tie me down and keep me grounded, I think I would feel freer than I ever have in my whole life.
The thing is that recent events in my life have made me question what I really think about it. Finding Elliott in the park was huge. I know it might make you uncomfortable reading this, but I think it’s something necessary to understand where I’m coming from. I’ve thought a lot about what I think Elliott must have thought about life, or at least, what I would have thought about life if I were in his shoes. Thinking these thoughts has made me see so many things in so many new ways. Sometimes I think that if the way our lives are run wasn’t so strict and rigid, maybe your brother would have imagined more of what he was capable of, and felt more inclined to pursue what he thought he could make with his life, instead of pursuing what he could end with his death.
This is something that I know I need to do. I need to be free, and I know that some people are free in college and with stable careers, but I don’t think that I would feel that way, at least not at this point in my life. I think instead about how cool it would be to do something like hop trains across the States, or travel in
Please call me and talk to me about whatever you are feeling when you have finished this letter. I want to talk to you about it and make sure that you understand what it is I’m trying to say.
Thanks for being such a great friend for my whole life. I love you, Sam, and I feel really privileged to say that. Seriously.
Talk to you soon,
Your crazy friend,
Justin
Thursday, November 1, 2007
scene/chat hybrid
Danny and Marnie took the bait to write the phone call between noelle and sam. i gave them the scene as i had written it and they picked up from where i left off. i think this is probably the most successful chat yet in that it is very active and a lot can be felt beneath the words. i'll include the part i wrote and then notate where they began.
Hello?
NOELLE
Hey.
SAM
You picked up.
NOELLE
I did.
SAM
I didn’t think you would.
NOELLE
Then why’d you call?
SAM
I don’t know. I saw your name in my phone and my finger pushed the button.
NOELLE
You’re good at that.
SAM
What?
NOELLE
Pushing buttons.
SAM
You’re still mad.
NOELLE
No. I just don’t ever want to IM with you again.
SAM
Oh come on.
NOELLE
You said you’d BRB.
SAM
I meant to, I really did.
NOELLE
We were in the middle of talking about—
SAM
– I know. It had nothing to do with that.
NOELLE
I thought you were too emotional to type.
SAM
You know I don’t get emotional.
NOELLE
I thought you’d had a break through.
SAM
Why does everyone think you need to be a weeping mess to get over something?
NOELLE
Something?
SAM
Whatever. You know what I mean.
NOELLE
No, not whatever. His name is Elliot.
SAM
I don’t want to talk about it.
NOELLE
About him.
SAM
Can’t we just have a normal conversation for once? Compare keggers or something. Oh wait, they probably don’t have them in New York, do they? It’s probably all wine tastings and fancy cheese.
NOELLE
You’re changing the subject.
SAM
Yes, that’s what I’m doing.
NOELLE
Ah!
SAM
Was that a gunshot?
NOELLE
No. Just a dumpster diver.
SAM
Huh?
NOELLE
Slamming the lid. Guess they didn’t find anything good.
SAM
New York is a strange planet.
NOELLE
Enough.
SAM
What, like you haven’t gotten a million Texas jokes in already.
NOELLE
ANYWAYS. I waited for you to BRB. On a Friday night. Until after Midnight.
SAM
What, for like two and half hours?
NOELLE
Yes. Glued to the screen like a total computer dork.
SAM
That must have been truly awful for you.
NOELLE
It was.
SAM
I mean, to be stuck in front a machine that connects you to all the information in the world. Whatever did you do?
NOELLE
I Googled every member of my entire family. Including second cousins.
SAM
Find any dirt?
NOELLE
No. Well, maybe. Although I think my Aunt Helen just has the bad fortune of having the same name and hometown as an expert alskdjaskldj.
They both laugh.
NOELLE
Stop making me laugh. I’m mad at you.
SAM
Why? I think you should be glad I abandoned you so you. Otherwise you wouldn’t have found out about your aunt’s secret life.
NOELLE
Shut up.
SAM
I’m serious.
NOELLE
No, I’m serious. What the hell happened that you couldn’t write me back until the next day? I was really worried about you.
SAM
I just got distracted. I’m sorry. I really am.
NOELLE
It was a girl, wasn’t it?
SAM
No.
NOELLE
What, did she like show up at your door and in a panic you just switched the computer off?
SAM
It wasn’t a girl. There are no girls. Well, no real ones at least.
NOELLE
What on Earth does that mean?
SAM
Nothing. Forget it.
NOELLE
As if I could. What, are you like in love with a fantasy or something?
SAM
More or less.
NOELLE
Sam. Explain. Before I’m forced to draw really creepy conclusions.
SAM
I’ve just been spending some time in Second Chance and…
NOELLE
What’s that?
SAM
Second Chance?
NOELLE
Yeah.
SAM
Oh man.
NOELLE
What?
SAM
You’ve never heard of Second Chance?
NOELLE
No. What is it? A cafe?
SAM
You mean a coffee shop?
NOELLE
That’s what I said.
SAM
You’re already so New York you don’t even realize it.
NOELLE
At least I’m not contracting all of my words together.
SAM
I don’t do that.
NOELLE
“You’r-a-ready”
SAM
I didn’t say it like that.
NOELLE
You did. If you’re nice, I’ll get you a speech therapist for Christmas. Now what’s Second Chance and who’s the girl?
SAM
Only one of the biggest things to ever happen on the internet. I can’t believe you haven’t heard of it.
NOELLE
I haven’t. Get over it.
SAM
It’s a virtual community created by its inhabitants.
NOELLE
Uh… what?
(this is where danny and marnie started chatting)
sam
it's like a game, kind of. actually it's not really a
game at all. it's like having another life only it's all virtual
noelle
...is this supposed to sound like something normal
human beings do?
sam
Oh come on. You're like the only person I have met
who's never heard of it. It's a pretty popular thing
noelle
sorry I live in a state of actual reality.
so, all these virtual people...they're connected to
actual living, breathing, non-pixellated people?
sam
no, they're actually made of magic and function
entirely on their own.
yes of course they're connected to real people
whatever. you either get it or you don't
noelle
well, if they're connected to real people, that means
your girl is both real AND virtual.
sam
of course, you bring it around to that again
noelle
why wouldn't I?
sam
whatever man. it's nothing. it's just something I'm
playing around with.
noelle
Ever say that about me while we were dating?
sam
noelle this has nothing to do with that. you know
you're being very hostile. if i didn't know any better i'd say you were jealous
or something
noelle
I'm not hostile, and I'm not jealous. I'm trying to
make honest conversation. So I guess you should start
by being honest about why you called.
sam
i told you, i was just flipping through my phone so i
called. why does it matter why i called?
would you rather i not call? we could never talk to
eachother again if you prefer.
noelle
You know that if I didn't want to talk to you, I would
have hung up before now.
I just want to make sure I'm on the line for the right
reasons.
sam
well what reason would be good enough to keep you on
the line?
noelle
I don't know. Be creative.
sam
ok. well i just wanted to make sure that everything's
cool. like between us. i mean we haven't exactly been
laurel and hardy since you got all pissed at me for
leaving a damn IM conversation.
noelle
*stifling laughter*
laurel and hardy?
sam
what? what's funny?
noelle
"laurel and hardy." I like it.
sam
haha yeah?
noelle
yes, well done.
sam
o you know i've got a million of them.
noelle
I wish I didn't.
sam
you wish you didn't what?
noelle
know you have a million of them. I also wish I didn't find each one so damn funny
Because that makes things pretty difficult sometimes.
sam
....yeah? how so?
noelle
I don't know. well, I do know. And so do you.
sam
yeah. i know
noelle
yeah.
sam
but i mean come on, those Neew Yowrk guys must be all
over you up there.
noelle
not New Yorkers, no...
sam
O god. not jersey boys?
noelle
Nah, Springsteen was the only good one. He's been
taken for about twenty years.
sam
haha. well there's got to be someone right? i mean....
right?
noelle
...right.
Il est francais, actuellement.
sam
well don't blurt it all out at once.
noelle
I won't.
sam
no habla, amigo
noelle
uck-fay ou-yay.
sam
ha. so he's french eh? does he smell like cheeze and
eat crepes and read beat-poetry?
noelle
all of the above, all the time. He's on constant
curly-goatee mode too.
sam
wow. he sounds super cool. i mean how can he not be,
he's french. I always said that you know how to pick
'em.
noelle
haha, how gracious of you. The truth is, I didn't
really "choose" him at all.
sam
well whatever
noelle
Well, I'd like to tell you that he waltzed up to me in
some city cafe....
sam
coffee shop
noelle
don't make me break out more pig latin.
sam
continue
noelle
well, I could make up some fancy, romantic scenario
just to bug you. but I'm not the one living in a
half-reality...
sam
aight you know what. i don't expect you to understand
it but you don't need to make fun of it. lot's of people
do it
noelle
if they didn't, you'd be pretty lonely.
sam
ha
noelle
anyway, I guess I'm kind of a bitch for telling you
about Adrien.
sam
haha Adrien. No, I'm glad you're, you know, out there
doing that stuff.... it's great
noelle
you think so?
sam
sure
noelle
why?
sam
i don't know. because you should do what makes you
happy. and you sound happy
noelle
but that's way too decent of you!
sam
o screw off.
noelle
that's more like it.
sam
whatever man.
noelle
you know how we really met? me and adrien?
sam
no please tell me
noelle
I was attending a student-directed show at school --
sounded like it was going to be pretty good. But this
guy came to sit right down in front of me, wearing a
hat that blocked my view -- one of those fedoras, you
know?
sam
like indiana jones?
noelle
yeah, but without the ugly face beneath it.
sam
i'm going to let that one go, but you watch your
mouth. anyway. continue
noelle
thanks. so, anyway, I asked, "hey, could you take that
thing off? I can't see."
and he said, "sure, but I wouldn't ruin the integrity
of this ensemble for just anyone."
sam
wow this guy sounds like a real winner
noelle
I must have given him a pretty disgusted look, so I
guess to ease things a little, he plopped it down on
MY head and said, "you don't mind if I put this here,
do you?" which reminded me of you, actually, and made
me laugh.
sam
yeah only I wouldn't be caught dead in a fedora.
unless i was indiana jones
noelle
which, luckily, you aren't.
sam
hmm yeah
noelle
yeah.
so, it's been quite a while since you were in front of
second chance. feeling any withdrawal? or are you
multi-tasking?
sam
why are you so caught up on this second chance thing?
noelle
I don't know. I can't figure out if it's creepy or
perfect for you.
sam
it's not creepy
what's that supposed to mean anyway?
noelle
nothing as bad as you seem to think.
you can try to figure it out while I go to my class,
how's that?
sam
whatever
noelle
wait, so after all that, we're going to be angry
again?
sam
no. i'm not angry. i'll talk to you later.
noelle
um, okay. bye sam.
wait -- sam?
sam
yeah
noelle
I officially allow your girl to be real.
sam
ok thanks
noelle
bye.
sam
bye
sam
goddamnit
Hello?
NOELLE
Hey.
SAM
You picked up.
NOELLE
I did.
SAM
I didn’t think you would.
NOELLE
Then why’d you call?
SAM
I don’t know. I saw your name in my phone and my finger pushed the button.
NOELLE
You’re good at that.
SAM
What?
NOELLE
Pushing buttons.
SAM
You’re still mad.
NOELLE
No. I just don’t ever want to IM with you again.
SAM
Oh come on.
NOELLE
You said you’d BRB.
SAM
I meant to, I really did.
NOELLE
We were in the middle of talking about—
SAM
– I know. It had nothing to do with that.
NOELLE
I thought you were too emotional to type.
SAM
You know I don’t get emotional.
NOELLE
I thought you’d had a break through.
SAM
Why does everyone think you need to be a weeping mess to get over something?
NOELLE
Something?
SAM
Whatever. You know what I mean.
NOELLE
No, not whatever. His name is Elliot.
SAM
I don’t want to talk about it.
NOELLE
About him.
SAM
Can’t we just have a normal conversation for once? Compare keggers or something. Oh wait, they probably don’t have them in New York, do they? It’s probably all wine tastings and fancy cheese.
NOELLE
You’re changing the subject.
SAM
Yes, that’s what I’m doing.
NOELLE
Ah!
SAM
Was that a gunshot?
NOELLE
No. Just a dumpster diver.
SAM
Huh?
NOELLE
Slamming the lid. Guess they didn’t find anything good.
SAM
New York is a strange planet.
NOELLE
Enough.
SAM
What, like you haven’t gotten a million Texas jokes in already.
NOELLE
ANYWAYS. I waited for you to BRB. On a Friday night. Until after Midnight.
SAM
What, for like two and half hours?
NOELLE
Yes. Glued to the screen like a total computer dork.
SAM
That must have been truly awful for you.
NOELLE
It was.
SAM
I mean, to be stuck in front a machine that connects you to all the information in the world. Whatever did you do?
NOELLE
I Googled every member of my entire family. Including second cousins.
SAM
Find any dirt?
NOELLE
No. Well, maybe. Although I think my Aunt Helen just has the bad fortune of having the same name and hometown as an expert alskdjaskldj.
They both laugh.
NOELLE
Stop making me laugh. I’m mad at you.
SAM
Why? I think you should be glad I abandoned you so you. Otherwise you wouldn’t have found out about your aunt’s secret life.
NOELLE
Shut up.
SAM
I’m serious.
NOELLE
No, I’m serious. What the hell happened that you couldn’t write me back until the next day? I was really worried about you.
SAM
I just got distracted. I’m sorry. I really am.
NOELLE
It was a girl, wasn’t it?
SAM
No.
NOELLE
What, did she like show up at your door and in a panic you just switched the computer off?
SAM
It wasn’t a girl. There are no girls. Well, no real ones at least.
NOELLE
What on Earth does that mean?
SAM
Nothing. Forget it.
NOELLE
As if I could. What, are you like in love with a fantasy or something?
SAM
More or less.
NOELLE
Sam. Explain. Before I’m forced to draw really creepy conclusions.
SAM
I’ve just been spending some time in Second Chance and…
NOELLE
What’s that?
SAM
Second Chance?
NOELLE
Yeah.
SAM
Oh man.
NOELLE
What?
SAM
You’ve never heard of Second Chance?
NOELLE
No. What is it? A cafe?
SAM
You mean a coffee shop?
NOELLE
That’s what I said.
SAM
You’re already so New York you don’t even realize it.
NOELLE
At least I’m not contracting all of my words together.
SAM
I don’t do that.
NOELLE
“You’r-a-ready”
SAM
I didn’t say it like that.
NOELLE
You did. If you’re nice, I’ll get you a speech therapist for Christmas. Now what’s Second Chance and who’s the girl?
SAM
Only one of the biggest things to ever happen on the internet. I can’t believe you haven’t heard of it.
NOELLE
I haven’t. Get over it.
SAM
It’s a virtual community created by its inhabitants.
NOELLE
Uh… what?
(this is where danny and marnie started chatting)
sam
it's like a game, kind of. actually it's not really a
game at all. it's like having another life only it's all virtual
noelle
...is this supposed to sound like something normal
human beings do?
sam
Oh come on. You're like the only person I have met
who's never heard of it. It's a pretty popular thing
noelle
sorry I live in a state of actual reality.
so, all these virtual people...they're connected to
actual living, breathing, non-pixellated people?
sam
no, they're actually made of magic and function
entirely on their own.
yes of course they're connected to real people
whatever. you either get it or you don't
noelle
well, if they're connected to real people, that means
your girl is both real AND virtual.
sam
of course, you bring it around to that again
noelle
why wouldn't I?
sam
whatever man. it's nothing. it's just something I'm
playing around with.
noelle
Ever say that about me while we were dating?
sam
noelle this has nothing to do with that. you know
you're being very hostile. if i didn't know any better i'd say you were jealous
or something
noelle
I'm not hostile, and I'm not jealous. I'm trying to
make honest conversation. So I guess you should start
by being honest about why you called.
sam
i told you, i was just flipping through my phone so i
called. why does it matter why i called?
would you rather i not call? we could never talk to
eachother again if you prefer.
noelle
You know that if I didn't want to talk to you, I would
have hung up before now.
I just want to make sure I'm on the line for the right
reasons.
sam
well what reason would be good enough to keep you on
the line?
noelle
I don't know. Be creative.
sam
ok. well i just wanted to make sure that everything's
cool. like between us. i mean we haven't exactly been
laurel and hardy since you got all pissed at me for
leaving a damn IM conversation.
noelle
*stifling laughter*
laurel and hardy?
sam
what? what's funny?
noelle
"laurel and hardy." I like it.
sam
haha yeah?
noelle
yes, well done.
sam
o you know i've got a million of them.
noelle
I wish I didn't.
sam
you wish you didn't what?
noelle
know you have a million of them. I also wish I didn't find each one so damn funny
Because that makes things pretty difficult sometimes.
sam
....yeah? how so?
noelle
I don't know. well, I do know. And so do you.
sam
yeah. i know
noelle
yeah.
sam
but i mean come on, those Neew Yowrk guys must be all
over you up there.
noelle
not New Yorkers, no...
sam
O god. not jersey boys?
noelle
Nah, Springsteen was the only good one. He's been
taken for about twenty years.
sam
haha. well there's got to be someone right? i mean....
right?
noelle
...right.
Il est francais, actuellement.
sam
well don't blurt it all out at once.
noelle
I won't.
sam
no habla, amigo
noelle
uck-fay ou-yay.
sam
ha. so he's french eh? does he smell like cheeze and
eat crepes and read beat-poetry?
noelle
all of the above, all the time. He's on constant
curly-goatee mode too.
sam
wow. he sounds super cool. i mean how can he not be,
he's french. I always said that you know how to pick
'em.
noelle
haha, how gracious of you. The truth is, I didn't
really "choose" him at all.
sam
well whatever
noelle
Well, I'd like to tell you that he waltzed up to me in
some city cafe....
sam
coffee shop
noelle
don't make me break out more pig latin.
sam
continue
noelle
well, I could make up some fancy, romantic scenario
just to bug you. but I'm not the one living in a
half-reality...
sam
aight you know what. i don't expect you to understand
it but you don't need to make fun of it. lot's of people
do it
noelle
if they didn't, you'd be pretty lonely.
sam
ha
noelle
anyway, I guess I'm kind of a bitch for telling you
about Adrien.
sam
haha Adrien. No, I'm glad you're, you know, out there
doing that stuff.... it's great
noelle
you think so?
sam
sure
noelle
why?
sam
i don't know. because you should do what makes you
happy. and you sound happy
noelle
but that's way too decent of you!
sam
o screw off.
noelle
that's more like it.
sam
whatever man.
noelle
you know how we really met? me and adrien?
sam
no please tell me
noelle
I was attending a student-directed show at school --
sounded like it was going to be pretty good. But this
guy came to sit right down in front of me, wearing a
hat that blocked my view -- one of those fedoras, you
know?
sam
like indiana jones?
noelle
yeah, but without the ugly face beneath it.
sam
i'm going to let that one go, but you watch your
mouth. anyway. continue
noelle
thanks. so, anyway, I asked, "hey, could you take that
thing off? I can't see."
and he said, "sure, but I wouldn't ruin the integrity
of this ensemble for just anyone."
sam
wow this guy sounds like a real winner
noelle
I must have given him a pretty disgusted look, so I
guess to ease things a little, he plopped it down on
MY head and said, "you don't mind if I put this here,
do you?" which reminded me of you, actually, and made
me laugh.
sam
yeah only I wouldn't be caught dead in a fedora.
unless i was indiana jones
noelle
which, luckily, you aren't.
sam
hmm yeah
noelle
yeah.
so, it's been quite a while since you were in front of
second chance. feeling any withdrawal? or are you
multi-tasking?
sam
why are you so caught up on this second chance thing?
noelle
I don't know. I can't figure out if it's creepy or
perfect for you.
sam
it's not creepy
what's that supposed to mean anyway?
noelle
nothing as bad as you seem to think.
you can try to figure it out while I go to my class,
how's that?
sam
whatever
noelle
wait, so after all that, we're going to be angry
again?
sam
no. i'm not angry. i'll talk to you later.
noelle
um, okay. bye sam.
wait -- sam?
sam
yeah
noelle
I officially allow your girl to be real.
sam
ok thanks
noelle
bye.
sam
bye
sam
goddamnit
Monday, October 29, 2007
Sunday, October 28, 2007
#8 reul, beth, kaiya in the hospital (dani, marybeth, marnie)
So they've made plans at the end of this for tomorrow... I'd like to see them all together again! But I think the scene would begin with them eating ice cream in the room and pretending that they've escaped.... since I don't think anyone wants Reul who just had major brain surgery to leave the hospital just yet... so, who wants to pick up where this left off and when?
beth
hello?
reul
hi
beth
oh good. i thought you were asleep.
reul
no, i was trying to sleep. there isn't really anything else to do
nothing on tv
beth
yeah... tv sucks. even cable.
reul
yeah, i remember when i was little i used to watch it so much and now there's never anything on
beth
so i think kaiya is coming too. at least she said so last time.
reul
so how are you! i cant believe you're here
I missed you
beth
of course i'm here.
you too!
i wonder if i should go tell the nurse to look out for kaiya.
you know how she's always getting lost...
reul
haha, yeah, maybe you should
beth
okay.
brb
reul
hey.
so yeah, kaiya came right after you left
im surprised you didn't bump into each other
beth
when was this?
reul
right after you left, remember when you said you were gonna get a nurse
i think i'm going crazy im so druged right now
beth
no no, you're fine. I'm the one who gets weird in hospitals.
reul
so, anything exciting been happening
beth
no -- but wait, how long was kaiya here?
reul
just a little bit. she had to go to the bathroom
beth
so she's coming back? soon?
reul
yeah i guess, i mean i didn't ask her exactly what she had to do in the bathroom but i figure...
beth
haha, right.
I still have no idea where the bathroom is in here. I think they switch the walls around like cubicles every time I leave.
anyway. Bored stiff yet?
you've gotten your computer out, at least.
reul
well, actully, in the middle of the night there are these weird bathroom monsters that switch the signs on the bathrooms jsut to mix people up
yeah.
yeah, its really boring
i'm so glad you're here though, really.
beth
it must be, since you feel the need to create bathroom monsters.
me too.
I am about to be a little honest here, though, Ruel
reul
you guys are my best friends.
what
beth
I -- well, you too, of course.
Here's the truth then, in the name of bestfriendom.
reul
what
beth
I get so frustrated whenever I come here. Not because the walls shift and because it is always cold and smells like gauze and the fluorescent lights give me headaches, but because all those things must be just a fraction of how much YOU hate it here.
and I have the choice to come and go.
reul
oh
beth
it makes me so angry that you exist this way
reul
don't worry its not that bad
beth
it IS, though!
reul
i mean, im used to it and stuff
and there are bathroom monsters to talk to!
beth
No, see, that's what people who visit you are supposed to do -- be positive! But you're allowed to be pissed off and cramped. Because that's how I feel for you.
reul
if i were pissed off and cramped no one would want to come visit. you even said it yourself, you have the "choice to come and go"
beth
yeah. yeah, I guess that's true...
haha, you're so damn sunshiny.
reul
oh, shut up
beth
fine, fine.
where the hell is kaiya??
reul
maybe she got lost?
im sure she's fine
maybe she fell in the toilett
beth
haha. perhaps
are you waiting to do something on your laptop? I could leave if you're trying to get something done.
or if you're tired, I don't have to be here
reul
no no its fine
you can sit down on the bed with me if you want
you dont have to stand.
beth
well, it's just sitting out, losing battery power...
standing is fine, I don't want to crush your toes.
reul
you wont
i was gonna look at this cool star website. i can show you it if you want
but you cant see from there there's a glare
or whatever, i can put it away to if you want to jsut talk
beth
okay, sure.
no no, what about stars?
reul
remember in jr. high when we always used to cuddle under the covers in the same bed and look up our favorite bands and stuff
and interview with our favorite singers
beth
of course. that never would have stopped if we didn't get too gangly to all lay in the same bed..
reul
thats what this reminds me of. except i cant really move with this stupid head thing
yeah, and Hanson got old
beth
yeah. but at least you only got big-headed literally!
reul
better a big head than a big butt, i always say
no i don't always say that. i just didn't know what to say. haha
beth
hahaha, I wouldn't have called you on it, don't worry.
reul
ok, here look. thats a picture of our galaxy like a bajillion lightyears away. isn't that cool.
beth
who took it?
reul
it looks like a blur.
i don't know.
some satalite or something
beth
how did a satellite leave the galaxy? I didn't even know we reached that far.
reul
i don't know. somehow we have that cool picture
beth
is it the only one? are there more like this?
reul
i dont know. i didn't take it. i just look at it
better than looking at white walls, right
beth
true.
you should print it out, plaster it all over. are you allowed to decorate the walls here?
reul
well, nobody said i couldn't but i'd probabally be in trouble for getting out of bed.
beth
right. well, do you want me to hang anything?
reul
um, i don't really have anything.
darn, that'd be cool though
beth
but I could make things! print stuff!
I could print a copy of the galaxy.
reul
ok. that'd be cool.
beth
you don't sound too enthusiastic.
reul
no, seriously, that'd be awesome.
i'm just kinda sick, you know.
beth
oh, of course. sorry. you know, I've been trying really hard to distinguish between the two.
reul
what, health and enthusiasm?
beth
the lack of one or the other.
reul
yeah, sorry. i'll try to be more chipper.
beth
you know, I think kaiya left.
reul
yeah, i was just thinking aobut that. it has been a really long time. i kinda don't think she's in the bathroom.
why'd she leave?
beth
I might know why
reul
why
beth
I don't know, it's pretty w-- not weird. It's...
we just know you've had a rough time.
reul
so.. she thought i wouldn't want to see her.
?
beth
no, it's not quite that.
reul
beth, don't be stupid. of course i want to see you guys. what do you think i want to just lie around all day doing nothing.
i'm so jealous of you because you can DO stuff. and see people and hang out with eachother.
beth
no, that's not it at all!! I wish it was. at least then I'd be happy to see you frustrated.
but it's not like that.
reul
then what is it? i don't understand
beth
okay. how long has it been since the last surgery?
if you had to guess?
reul
you mean this last one that i'm recovering from now?
beth
right.
reul
i dont know. like... not very long
like a day and hours or something.
is that what you mean?
i probabally wont be out of the hospital for like a week
why waht does this have to do with kaiya?
beth
well, it's just that we're constantly in flux, waiting for news about how you've been doing. and that might be what rattled us so bad a few days ago, during the last procedure.
reul
what do you mean rattled. what did people tell you about it?
beth
we were outside of town, watching stars for you...I don't know if we told you that.
reul
really! aw, thats so cool
beth
and we were sitting there waiting for stars and for news, and we figured it had been a few hours into the surgery, at least...
and neither stars or news were coming.
reul
so you didnt see anything
beth
well, time was passing in flux, you know? It was like, we've been lliving with these waves of waiting and hoping and relief and worry, and it was all being played out, outside of town...am I rambling?
reul
beth, its not a big deal ok. They've been running tests and surgerys and stuff on me since, like, forever, and they probablly will forever so just don't freak out about it.
just watch the stars and know that i wish i were there too.
beth
no, that's just it, just listen, okay? you have to listen.
reul
ok. sorry
beth
it's alright, because I understand that it's a weird thing to listen to. It's the way most people get spoken to after they're dead. and I'm sorry. but I have to tell it right.
reul
ok
beth
I really wish kaiya was here for this.
but anyway...
the stars finally filled us in.
after a few hours up there, we saw you.
reul
ok, um i wasn't really expecting to tell you this...
ok this is so weird. i feel like im in one of those lame books my mom reads and crys at.
beth
you don't have to keep talking, if you don't want to. I think I know what you're going to say.
reul
i don't know why im here right now. i mean, i know why im here in the hospital, but i mean like here, like talking to you.
beth
what are you saying?
reul
ok, so on the night of the surgery i had this crazy dream--liek the weirdest dream i'v ever had in my life.
but it wasn't a dream. (ok this isn't making any sence.) just hear me out.
beth
I am.
reul
so, well, when you have surgery, i mean the kind i had, there's a really really high risk.
i know i didn't tell you that, i just didn't want you to freak out, you know?
beth
well, it's okay, because we knew anyway.
reul
but anyway. i sorta like, died? I dont know! I cant explain it. It was so weird. i don't even know what i'm talking about. a part of me just thinks that its the all the drugs im on right now. haha
beth
ruel, don't make light of it.
reul
ok ok im trying not to, God, i jsut feel so corny talking to you about it
i jus twant to say that i love you, yo know
i mean, i guess i've sorta been trying to say that for like an hour now but not so straight forward.
beth
shit, we need kaiya here.
kaiya
did i hear my name?
beth
when has a bathroom break ever taken that long??
reul
maybe she went to get a muffin or something.
kaiya
you'd think they'd put bathrooms in logical places so that weak hospital-lings could find them quickly, but no
they send visitors on wild goose chases accompanied by full bladders
reul
it was kinda awkward cuz we didn't know what to say at first
hey, who ya callin' a weak-hospital-ling
i've got brain-armor
kaiya
then you're not the afore mentioned hospital-ling, i guess
a hospital knight?
reul
yes. a hospital knight, slaying the bathroom monsters. Hoorah
kaiya
im not even gonna ask what kind of monsters you meet in the bathroom
reul
hey! what took you so long?
i hope you brought back candy or hot-chocolate or something. you couldn't have spent that long in the bathroom
we were about to come rescue you
kaiya
just your lucky day, i've got chocolate for everyone.
reul
sweet!
haha literally!
kaiya
haha
the hospital/maze made finding a bathroom quite an ordeal, but it also lead me past numerous snack machines
reul
yeah, isn't that kindof ironic! i mean, the hospital is supposed to make people un-sick. but they give us so much junk food they just make us sicker
although, im not complaining. yum
kaiya
haha in the vending machines anyway
i dont envy the regular hospital food
i think the chefs have flavor phobia
reul
yeah, actually, i think the patients aren't supposed to be eating form the vending machines. but i always ask my mom to get me stuff when she's here
beth
I think I have to go.
see you in a couple days, okay?
reul
oh, why?
ok
hey, wait,
i really love you a lot
ok?
beth
haha. I'm sure you do.
bye, kaiya.
kaiya
she's not the only one. c'mere and hug me before you go
beth
not with those chocolate fingers. sorry man, you're plain out of luck.
reul
hey i dont know if you want to hug her. she has been drowning in a toilet for the past million years or so
kaiya
i promise i wont infect you
beth
see ya.
kaiya
bye, beth
reul
bye
kaiya
so what did i miss while i was adventuring?
reul
it was kinda weird
we talked about my surgery and the meteror shower.
kaiya
yeah, there were some amazing shooting stars that night
reul
and monsters! and the kinghts who slay them (moi)
really.
sorry, i couldn't be there, but i guess i sorta was in spirit.
kaiya
you were.
reul
kaiya
you scared the crap out of us in the meantime, though
reul
ok, grr you're just like beth! its not really my fault--all the shit that happens, ok?
kaiya
i know! im not blaming you, reul
reul
im sorry i didn't tell you everything at first and that i wasn't really detailed about what kind of testing it would be. I just wanted you to have fun you know.
im sick of everybody worrying aobut me.
kaiya
just cuz we love you, you know
reul
i know.
but im fine now. i mean, except for the fact that there's nothing good on tv.
but other than that..
seriously, i feel a lot better when you guys are here.
kaiya
that is a problem
the tv
reul
Beth said that you wanted to leave?
she wasn't really specific. it was weird. she said she thought she had left because you thought i was having a rough time or somehting?
kaiya
now? or when you were in surgery?
reul
before, when you were in the bathroom. she said she thought you had left.
kaiya
my head was as full as my bladder, i think
reul
so it was true? you did want to leave?
is that because you think i don't want you here?
cuz thats stupid
kaiya
nonono, it had nothing to do with you
reul
oh ok, whatever
kaiya
im just working some stuff out in my head
reul
yeah, me too (gestures to the contraption on her head) haha
kaiya
haha
reul
(contraption isn't the word she was looking for but the Janis can fix that later, hint)
kaiya
well looks like at least you've got yours worked out
reul
you know what we should do?
kaiya
what should we do?
reul
we should do something crazy. not tonight, because its late and I have a head-ace. but sometime
you and beth should come and sneek me out.
there's a window over there behind that curtain
kaiya
i am a strong proponent of crazy escapades
reul
i bet we could figure out how to open it
kaiya
hopefully the windows aren't as jail-like as the squeaky clean white walls
reul
and we'll get ice-cream or something
i just want to get out of here!
kaiya
how long are you supposed to be in here for?
reul
and its no fair that you and beth get to hang out and have fun with out me
i think like a week.
but it doesn't have to be that long, im sure. i feel pretty much fine
kaiya
beth and i will have to come to your rescue, obviously
reul
yeah.
kaiya
even though she probably won't agree until your head stops hurting
reul
i know I fine! and I'll keep the little bracelet thingy on so if anything happens everybody will know just to take me back here. and besides nothing will. i mean we'll just get ice cream and then comeback.
kaiya
we'll protect you. promise. *brandishes invisible sword valiently*
reul
sweet.
so will you try to convince beth... Pleeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaase
kaiya
yeah, yeah i will
i'll tell her that since your physical head is all patched up, we hafta take care of the part of your head the doctors missed, aka your sanity
reul
sure thing
well, i guess i better rest up if we're gonna do this tomorrow.
i am so excited!
this is gonna be awesome!
kaiya
agreed.
tell your head to heal up quick
cuz ready or not you're bustin out
reul
"Reul's head, heal up quck!"
"ok"
kaiya
good girl
reul
oh my God, i'm talking to my head. you're right my sanity does need help!
kaiya
step one sleep.
step two go on daring adventure to obtain frozen dairy product
step three rejoice in your reclaimed sanity
initiating step one..... NOW
see you tommorrow, reul
reul
zzzz (pretending to sleep)
yay, bye. shhhh don't tell anyone
kaiya
my lips are sealed
reul
I wuv yoooooou!
kaiya
i wuv you mooooooooooooooooore!
reul
bye
kaiya
see ya tommorrow
reul
see ya tommorrow
beth
hello?
reul
hi
beth
oh good. i thought you were asleep.
reul
no, i was trying to sleep. there isn't really anything else to do
nothing on tv
beth
yeah... tv sucks. even cable.
reul
yeah, i remember when i was little i used to watch it so much and now there's never anything on
beth
so i think kaiya is coming too. at least she said so last time.
reul
so how are you! i cant believe you're here
I missed you
beth
of course i'm here.
you too!
i wonder if i should go tell the nurse to look out for kaiya.
you know how she's always getting lost...
reul
haha, yeah, maybe you should
beth
okay.
brb
reul
hey.
so yeah, kaiya came right after you left
im surprised you didn't bump into each other
beth
when was this?
reul
right after you left, remember when you said you were gonna get a nurse
i think i'm going crazy im so druged right now
beth
no no, you're fine. I'm the one who gets weird in hospitals.
reul
so, anything exciting been happening
beth
no -- but wait, how long was kaiya here?
reul
just a little bit. she had to go to the bathroom
beth
so she's coming back? soon?
reul
yeah i guess, i mean i didn't ask her exactly what she had to do in the bathroom but i figure...
beth
haha, right.
I still have no idea where the bathroom is in here. I think they switch the walls around like cubicles every time I leave.
anyway. Bored stiff yet?
you've gotten your computer out, at least.
reul
well, actully, in the middle of the night there are these weird bathroom monsters that switch the signs on the bathrooms jsut to mix people up
yeah.
yeah, its really boring
i'm so glad you're here though, really.
beth
it must be, since you feel the need to create bathroom monsters.
me too.
I am about to be a little honest here, though, Ruel
reul
you guys are my best friends.
what
beth
I -- well, you too, of course.
Here's the truth then, in the name of bestfriendom.
reul
what
beth
I get so frustrated whenever I come here. Not because the walls shift and because it is always cold and smells like gauze and the fluorescent lights give me headaches, but because all those things must be just a fraction of how much YOU hate it here.
and I have the choice to come and go.
reul
oh
beth
it makes me so angry that you exist this way
reul
don't worry its not that bad
beth
it IS, though!
reul
i mean, im used to it and stuff
and there are bathroom monsters to talk to!
beth
No, see, that's what people who visit you are supposed to do -- be positive! But you're allowed to be pissed off and cramped. Because that's how I feel for you.
reul
if i were pissed off and cramped no one would want to come visit. you even said it yourself, you have the "choice to come and go"
beth
yeah. yeah, I guess that's true...
haha, you're so damn sunshiny.
reul
oh, shut up
beth
fine, fine.
where the hell is kaiya??
reul
maybe she got lost?
im sure she's fine
maybe she fell in the toilett
beth
haha. perhaps
are you waiting to do something on your laptop? I could leave if you're trying to get something done.
or if you're tired, I don't have to be here
reul
no no its fine
you can sit down on the bed with me if you want
you dont have to stand.
beth
well, it's just sitting out, losing battery power...
standing is fine, I don't want to crush your toes.
reul
you wont
i was gonna look at this cool star website. i can show you it if you want
but you cant see from there there's a glare
or whatever, i can put it away to if you want to jsut talk
beth
okay, sure.
no no, what about stars?
reul
remember in jr. high when we always used to cuddle under the covers in the same bed and look up our favorite bands and stuff
and interview with our favorite singers
beth
of course. that never would have stopped if we didn't get too gangly to all lay in the same bed..
reul
thats what this reminds me of. except i cant really move with this stupid head thing
yeah, and Hanson got old
beth
yeah. but at least you only got big-headed literally!
reul
better a big head than a big butt, i always say
no i don't always say that. i just didn't know what to say. haha
beth
hahaha, I wouldn't have called you on it, don't worry.
reul
ok, here look. thats a picture of our galaxy like a bajillion lightyears away. isn't that cool.
beth
who took it?
reul
it looks like a blur.
i don't know.
some satalite or something
beth
how did a satellite leave the galaxy? I didn't even know we reached that far.
reul
i don't know. somehow we have that cool picture
beth
is it the only one? are there more like this?
reul
i dont know. i didn't take it. i just look at it
better than looking at white walls, right
beth
true.
you should print it out, plaster it all over. are you allowed to decorate the walls here?
reul
well, nobody said i couldn't but i'd probabally be in trouble for getting out of bed.
beth
right. well, do you want me to hang anything?
reul
um, i don't really have anything.
darn, that'd be cool though
beth
but I could make things! print stuff!
I could print a copy of the galaxy.
reul
ok. that'd be cool.
beth
you don't sound too enthusiastic.
reul
no, seriously, that'd be awesome.
i'm just kinda sick, you know.
beth
oh, of course. sorry. you know, I've been trying really hard to distinguish between the two.
reul
what, health and enthusiasm?
beth
the lack of one or the other.
reul
yeah, sorry. i'll try to be more chipper.
beth
you know, I think kaiya left.
reul
yeah, i was just thinking aobut that. it has been a really long time. i kinda don't think she's in the bathroom.
why'd she leave?
beth
I might know why
reul
why
beth
I don't know, it's pretty w-- not weird. It's...
we just know you've had a rough time.
reul
so.. she thought i wouldn't want to see her.
?
beth
no, it's not quite that.
reul
beth, don't be stupid. of course i want to see you guys. what do you think i want to just lie around all day doing nothing.
i'm so jealous of you because you can DO stuff. and see people and hang out with eachother.
beth
no, that's not it at all!! I wish it was. at least then I'd be happy to see you frustrated.
but it's not like that.
reul
then what is it? i don't understand
beth
okay. how long has it been since the last surgery?
if you had to guess?
reul
you mean this last one that i'm recovering from now?
beth
right.
reul
i dont know. like... not very long
like a day and hours or something.
is that what you mean?
i probabally wont be out of the hospital for like a week
why waht does this have to do with kaiya?
beth
well, it's just that we're constantly in flux, waiting for news about how you've been doing. and that might be what rattled us so bad a few days ago, during the last procedure.
reul
what do you mean rattled. what did people tell you about it?
beth
we were outside of town, watching stars for you...I don't know if we told you that.
reul
really! aw, thats so cool
beth
and we were sitting there waiting for stars and for news, and we figured it had been a few hours into the surgery, at least...
and neither stars or news were coming.
reul
so you didnt see anything
beth
well, time was passing in flux, you know? It was like, we've been lliving with these waves of waiting and hoping and relief and worry, and it was all being played out, outside of town...am I rambling?
reul
beth, its not a big deal ok. They've been running tests and surgerys and stuff on me since, like, forever, and they probablly will forever so just don't freak out about it.
just watch the stars and know that i wish i were there too.
beth
no, that's just it, just listen, okay? you have to listen.
reul
ok. sorry
beth
it's alright, because I understand that it's a weird thing to listen to. It's the way most people get spoken to after they're dead. and I'm sorry. but I have to tell it right.
reul
ok
beth
I really wish kaiya was here for this.
but anyway...
the stars finally filled us in.
after a few hours up there, we saw you.
reul
ok, um i wasn't really expecting to tell you this...
ok this is so weird. i feel like im in one of those lame books my mom reads and crys at.
beth
you don't have to keep talking, if you don't want to. I think I know what you're going to say.
reul
i don't know why im here right now. i mean, i know why im here in the hospital, but i mean like here, like talking to you.
beth
what are you saying?
reul
ok, so on the night of the surgery i had this crazy dream--liek the weirdest dream i'v ever had in my life.
but it wasn't a dream. (ok this isn't making any sence.) just hear me out.
beth
I am.
reul
so, well, when you have surgery, i mean the kind i had, there's a really really high risk.
i know i didn't tell you that, i just didn't want you to freak out, you know?
beth
well, it's okay, because we knew anyway.
reul
but anyway. i sorta like, died? I dont know! I cant explain it. It was so weird. i don't even know what i'm talking about. a part of me just thinks that its the all the drugs im on right now. haha
beth
ruel, don't make light of it.
reul
ok ok im trying not to, God, i jsut feel so corny talking to you about it
i jus twant to say that i love you, yo know
i mean, i guess i've sorta been trying to say that for like an hour now but not so straight forward.
beth
shit, we need kaiya here.
kaiya
did i hear my name?
beth
when has a bathroom break ever taken that long??
reul
maybe she went to get a muffin or something.
kaiya
you'd think they'd put bathrooms in logical places so that weak hospital-lings could find them quickly, but no
they send visitors on wild goose chases accompanied by full bladders
reul
it was kinda awkward cuz we didn't know what to say at first
hey, who ya callin' a weak-hospital-ling
i've got brain-armor
kaiya
then you're not the afore mentioned hospital-ling, i guess
a hospital knight?
reul
yes. a hospital knight, slaying the bathroom monsters. Hoorah
kaiya
im not even gonna ask what kind of monsters you meet in the bathroom
reul
hey! what took you so long?
i hope you brought back candy or hot-chocolate or something. you couldn't have spent that long in the bathroom
we were about to come rescue you
kaiya
just your lucky day, i've got chocolate for everyone.
reul
sweet!
haha literally!
kaiya
haha
the hospital/maze made finding a bathroom quite an ordeal, but it also lead me past numerous snack machines
reul
yeah, isn't that kindof ironic! i mean, the hospital is supposed to make people un-sick. but they give us so much junk food they just make us sicker
although, im not complaining. yum
kaiya
haha in the vending machines anyway
i dont envy the regular hospital food
i think the chefs have flavor phobia
reul
yeah, actually, i think the patients aren't supposed to be eating form the vending machines. but i always ask my mom to get me stuff when she's here
beth
I think I have to go.
see you in a couple days, okay?
reul
oh, why?
ok
hey, wait,
i really love you a lot
ok?
beth
haha. I'm sure you do.
bye, kaiya.
kaiya
she's not the only one. c'mere and hug me before you go
beth
not with those chocolate fingers. sorry man, you're plain out of luck.
reul
hey i dont know if you want to hug her. she has been drowning in a toilet for the past million years or so
kaiya
i promise i wont infect you
beth
see ya.
kaiya
bye, beth
reul
bye
kaiya
so what did i miss while i was adventuring?
reul
it was kinda weird
we talked about my surgery and the meteror shower.
kaiya
yeah, there were some amazing shooting stars that night
reul
and monsters! and the kinghts who slay them (moi)
really.
sorry, i couldn't be there, but i guess i sorta was in spirit.
kaiya
you were.
reul
kaiya
you scared the crap out of us in the meantime, though
reul
ok, grr you're just like beth! its not really my fault--all the shit that happens, ok?
kaiya
i know! im not blaming you, reul
reul
im sorry i didn't tell you everything at first and that i wasn't really detailed about what kind of testing it would be. I just wanted you to have fun you know.
im sick of everybody worrying aobut me.
kaiya
just cuz we love you, you know
reul
i know.
but im fine now. i mean, except for the fact that there's nothing good on tv.
but other than that..
seriously, i feel a lot better when you guys are here.
kaiya
that is a problem
the tv
reul
Beth said that you wanted to leave?
she wasn't really specific. it was weird. she said she thought she had left because you thought i was having a rough time or somehting?
kaiya
now? or when you were in surgery?
reul
before, when you were in the bathroom. she said she thought you had left.
kaiya
my head was as full as my bladder, i think
reul
so it was true? you did want to leave?
is that because you think i don't want you here?
cuz thats stupid
kaiya
nonono, it had nothing to do with you
reul
oh ok, whatever
kaiya
im just working some stuff out in my head
reul
yeah, me too (gestures to the contraption on her head) haha
kaiya
haha
reul
(contraption isn't the word she was looking for but the Janis can fix that later, hint)
kaiya
well looks like at least you've got yours worked out
reul
you know what we should do?
kaiya
what should we do?
reul
we should do something crazy. not tonight, because its late and I have a head-ace. but sometime
you and beth should come and sneek me out.
there's a window over there behind that curtain
kaiya
i am a strong proponent of crazy escapades
reul
i bet we could figure out how to open it
kaiya
hopefully the windows aren't as jail-like as the squeaky clean white walls
reul
and we'll get ice-cream or something
i just want to get out of here!
kaiya
how long are you supposed to be in here for?
reul
and its no fair that you and beth get to hang out and have fun with out me
i think like a week.
but it doesn't have to be that long, im sure. i feel pretty much fine
kaiya
beth and i will have to come to your rescue, obviously
reul
yeah.
kaiya
even though she probably won't agree until your head stops hurting
reul
i know
kaiya
we'll protect you. promise. *brandishes invisible sword valiently*
reul
sweet.
so will you try to convince beth... Pleeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaase
kaiya
yeah, yeah i will
i'll tell her that since your physical head is all patched up, we hafta take care of the part of your head the doctors missed, aka your sanity
reul
sure thing
well, i guess i better rest up if we're gonna do this tomorrow.
i am so excited!
this is gonna be awesome!
kaiya
agreed.
tell your head to heal up quick
cuz ready or not you're bustin out
reul
"Reul's head, heal up quck!"
"ok"
kaiya
good girl
reul
oh my God, i'm talking to my head. you're right my sanity does need help!
kaiya
step one sleep.
step two go on daring adventure to obtain frozen dairy product
step three rejoice in your reclaimed sanity
initiating step one..... NOW
see you tommorrow, reul
reul
zzzz (pretending to sleep)
yay, bye. shhhh don't tell anyone
kaiya
my lips are sealed
reul
I wuv yoooooou!
kaiya
i wuv you mooooooooooooooooore!
reul
bye
kaiya
see ya tommorrow
reul
see ya tommorrow
Saturday, October 27, 2007
anthony and sam scene
Okay, no one has chatted as Anthony yet so I thought I would post a scene for you just so that you don't forget about him.
Doin' Nothing
SAM and ANTHONY in their apartment, each on a sofa, lying there doing nothing, staring at the ceiling.
SAM
So this is it?
ANTHONY
Well, it was.
SAM
But now it’s not?
ANTHONY
Now we’re talking.
SAM
And?
ANTHONY
And that’s not nothing.
SAM
You can’t talk?
ANTHONY
Nope.
SAM
Not even if you’re not talking about anything?
ANTHONY
It’s still talking which is still something. The goal is nothingness.
SAM
So… complete silence?
ANTHONY
Uh huh.
SAM
Man.
ANTHONY
Just give it a shot.
SAM
This is harder than I thought.
ANTHONY
Uh huh.
SAM
And boring as hell.
ANTHONY
You’ve hardly even tried.
SAM
Alright. I’ll shut up.
A bit of silence.
SAM
What about sounds you can’t help but make.
ANTHONY
What about them?
SAM
Like when I breathe, there’s this slight hiss in my right nostril. That’s not nothing.
ANTHONY
Then blow your nose.
SAM
Won’t help. Always had it.
ANTHONY
What, since birth?
SAM
Probably.
ANTHONY
Doesn’t that annoy you?
SAM
Don’t notice it most of the time. It’s just part of me.
ANTHONY
Then it shouldn’t matter. Just try not to concentrate on it. The whole point is to think about nothing but nothingness.
SAM
But I don’t even know what nothingness is. How am I supposed to think about it?
ANTHONY
That’s the whole point.
SAM
What is?
ANTHONY
Think about nothingness until you can’t think anymore and then you’ll experience it.
SAM
Experience what?
ANTHONY
Nothingness!
SAM
Oh. Okay.
A longer silence.
ANTHONY
You’re doing it on purpose.
SAM
What?
ANTHONY
This hissing. It’s louder.
SAM
No it’s not.
ANTHONY
I couldn’t even hear it before and now it’s taking over my whole brain.
SAM
I’m not doing it on purpose. You probably just didn’t hear it because you didn’t know it was there and now that I told you, you’re focusing on it. Just relax and think about something else… like nothingness.
ANTHONY
You’re an ass.
SAM
I know. Now let’s get back to it.
A longer silence.
ANTHONY
This is impossible.
SAM
I swear, I can’t help it!
ANTHONY
I think you’ve got to be alone for it to work.
SAM
Yeah, I can see that.
ANTHONY
Maybe I’ll go for a walk.
SAM
That’s not nothing.
ANTHONY
I know. But I’m not the one who needs it.
SAM
Oh right, you’re from the Outback. You must have had to do a lot of this.
ANTHONY
I did, actually, but I didn’t stare up at the paint cracking on the ceiling. With stars like those, you can lay there looking up until you’d swear you were one of them, just another pinhole in the fabric of the universe, letting light from the other side pass through you.
SAM
New lyrics?
ANTHONY
Yeah. That obvious?
SAM
Yeah. But it’s a good one.
ANTHONY
Cool. Maybe I’ll keep working on it…
Grabs his guitar and slings it across his back. Starts to head out and then returns and goes to the computer and begins unplugging the router.
SAM
What are you doing?
ANTHONY
Helping you with the nothingness.
SAM
You’re not taking the router.
ANTHONY
Just for a bit. It needs some fresh air.
SAM
Seriously. That’s not funny. Put it back.
ANTHONY
You weren’t going to get online today anyway, right?
SAM
Right, so you can put it back and it can sit over there where it always does and take a little rest.
ANTHONY
Nah, I think it wants to go for a stroll. I’ll just take it along so you have one less thing to think about.
SAM
You’re worse than a mom.
ANTHONY
No man, I am your mom.
SAM
That’s messed up.
ANTHONY
I know, the doctors said you would be a total freak and it looks like they were right.
SAM
At least I didn’t inherit the accent… (with an Australian accent) Now scram! I’ve got a lot of nothing to get back to!
ANTHONY exits and SAM stares up at the ceiling for a moment quietly and then begins blowing out of one nostril, trying to get rid of the hiss. He fails and sits up.
SAM
I’m a failure. At nothing.
He gets his phone out and dials.
SAM
Hey dude, it’s me. Just wanted to see what’s up. Call me.
Dials again
Hey there. It’s Sam. Just wondering what’s going on at your place cuz not much going on here, but unfortunately not nothing either…. Don’t ask. Give me a ring.
Dials again.
A busy signal? How is that even possible? What is this? A landline? Freak.
Dials again.
Hi Sam, it’s Sam. From Philosophy. I don’t know. I just felt like calling ‘cuz you gave me your number and I thought it’d be fun to say Hi, Sam, it’s Sam. I realize that’s kind of lame now. I’ll understand if you don’t feel like calling back.
Scrolls through his phone a bit and then finally settles on a number.
Hello? Noelle. You picked up. Well, I didn’t think you would…
___
Anyone want to take a stab at this first phone conversation between Noelle and Sam since they got into a fight? If two people are interested, we'll set up a chat.
Doin' Nothing
SAM and ANTHONY in their apartment, each on a sofa, lying there doing nothing, staring at the ceiling.
SAM
So this is it?
ANTHONY
Well, it was.
SAM
But now it’s not?
ANTHONY
Now we’re talking.
SAM
And?
ANTHONY
And that’s not nothing.
SAM
You can’t talk?
ANTHONY
Nope.
SAM
Not even if you’re not talking about anything?
ANTHONY
It’s still talking which is still something. The goal is nothingness.
SAM
So… complete silence?
ANTHONY
Uh huh.
SAM
Man.
ANTHONY
Just give it a shot.
SAM
This is harder than I thought.
ANTHONY
Uh huh.
SAM
And boring as hell.
ANTHONY
You’ve hardly even tried.
SAM
Alright. I’ll shut up.
A bit of silence.
SAM
What about sounds you can’t help but make.
ANTHONY
What about them?
SAM
Like when I breathe, there’s this slight hiss in my right nostril. That’s not nothing.
ANTHONY
Then blow your nose.
SAM
Won’t help. Always had it.
ANTHONY
What, since birth?
SAM
Probably.
ANTHONY
Doesn’t that annoy you?
SAM
Don’t notice it most of the time. It’s just part of me.
ANTHONY
Then it shouldn’t matter. Just try not to concentrate on it. The whole point is to think about nothing but nothingness.
SAM
But I don’t even know what nothingness is. How am I supposed to think about it?
ANTHONY
That’s the whole point.
SAM
What is?
ANTHONY
Think about nothingness until you can’t think anymore and then you’ll experience it.
SAM
Experience what?
ANTHONY
Nothingness!
SAM
Oh. Okay.
A longer silence.
ANTHONY
You’re doing it on purpose.
SAM
What?
ANTHONY
This hissing. It’s louder.
SAM
No it’s not.
ANTHONY
I couldn’t even hear it before and now it’s taking over my whole brain.
SAM
I’m not doing it on purpose. You probably just didn’t hear it because you didn’t know it was there and now that I told you, you’re focusing on it. Just relax and think about something else… like nothingness.
ANTHONY
You’re an ass.
SAM
I know. Now let’s get back to it.
A longer silence.
ANTHONY
This is impossible.
SAM
I swear, I can’t help it!
ANTHONY
I think you’ve got to be alone for it to work.
SAM
Yeah, I can see that.
ANTHONY
Maybe I’ll go for a walk.
SAM
That’s not nothing.
ANTHONY
I know. But I’m not the one who needs it.
SAM
Oh right, you’re from the Outback. You must have had to do a lot of this.
ANTHONY
I did, actually, but I didn’t stare up at the paint cracking on the ceiling. With stars like those, you can lay there looking up until you’d swear you were one of them, just another pinhole in the fabric of the universe, letting light from the other side pass through you.
SAM
New lyrics?
ANTHONY
Yeah. That obvious?
SAM
Yeah. But it’s a good one.
ANTHONY
Cool. Maybe I’ll keep working on it…
Grabs his guitar and slings it across his back. Starts to head out and then returns and goes to the computer and begins unplugging the router.
SAM
What are you doing?
ANTHONY
Helping you with the nothingness.
SAM
You’re not taking the router.
ANTHONY
Just for a bit. It needs some fresh air.
SAM
Seriously. That’s not funny. Put it back.
ANTHONY
You weren’t going to get online today anyway, right?
SAM
Right, so you can put it back and it can sit over there where it always does and take a little rest.
ANTHONY
Nah, I think it wants to go for a stroll. I’ll just take it along so you have one less thing to think about.
SAM
You’re worse than a mom.
ANTHONY
No man, I am your mom.
SAM
That’s messed up.
ANTHONY
I know, the doctors said you would be a total freak and it looks like they were right.
SAM
At least I didn’t inherit the accent… (with an Australian accent) Now scram! I’ve got a lot of nothing to get back to!
ANTHONY exits and SAM stares up at the ceiling for a moment quietly and then begins blowing out of one nostril, trying to get rid of the hiss. He fails and sits up.
SAM
I’m a failure. At nothing.
He gets his phone out and dials.
SAM
Hey dude, it’s me. Just wanted to see what’s up. Call me.
Dials again
Hey there. It’s Sam. Just wondering what’s going on at your place cuz not much going on here, but unfortunately not nothing either…. Don’t ask. Give me a ring.
Dials again.
A busy signal? How is that even possible? What is this? A landline? Freak.
Dials again.
Hi Sam, it’s Sam. From Philosophy. I don’t know. I just felt like calling ‘cuz you gave me your number and I thought it’d be fun to say Hi, Sam, it’s Sam. I realize that’s kind of lame now. I’ll understand if you don’t feel like calling back.
Scrolls through his phone a bit and then finally settles on a number.
Hello? Noelle. You picked up. Well, I didn’t think you would…
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Anyone want to take a stab at this first phone conversation between Noelle and Sam since they got into a fight? If two people are interested, we'll set up a chat.
Friday, October 26, 2007
#7 kaiya and beth in the waiting room (molly and marnie)
Well, this one didn't quite go as planned but it's still a great chat. On Sunday, they'll actually get to talk to Reul if all goes well... yay for chatting as new characters!
[2:41:22 PM] kaiyaqrst says: hello
[2:42:04 PM] bethqrst says: Oh, so you did come!
[2:42:14 PM] bethqrst says: I didn't know if we'd run into each other.
[2:42:20 PM] kaiyaqrst says: i told you i would!
[2:43:08 PM] bethqrst says: I know, but you've been pretty busy. I just wasn't sure, that's all
[2:43:28 PM] bethqrst says: they said we could go in in a few minutes; I guess they're doing some check-up sort of stuff.
[2:44:09 PM] kaiyaqrst says: ohh i'm nervous. do we really have to?
[2:44:58 PM] bethqrst says: well, don't you want to see her? they won't leave her deformed or anything.
[2:45:41 PM] kaiyaqrst says: i know. i do. i just don't like seeing her like this. it makes me all shakey
[2:46:00 PM] bethqrst says: Yeah, you'd think we'd get used to it.
[2:46:12 PM] bethqrst says: but how's school?
[2:46:23 PM] kaiyaqrst says: i don't think you can get used to it.
[2:46:34 PM] bethqrst says: I hope not.
[2:46:36 PM] kaiyaqrst says: it's been... terrible.
[2:46:41 PM] kaiyaqrst says: school
[2:46:57 PM] kaiyaqrst says: too much work, not enough time to do any of it
[2:47:07 PM] bethqrst says: but you love school....all you do is rave about Noelle....
[2:47:28 PM] bethqrst says: just had a rough few weeks? I figured I would have heard from you sooner, if it was THAT bad...
[2:47:54 PM] kaiyaqrst says: haha. i rave about noelle, yes. but not the actual school part.
[2:48:06 PM] bethqrst says: well, who does.
[2:48:11 PM] kaiyaqrst says: no, it's not that bad. i just have to write 2 essays for tommorrow
[2:49:49 PM] bethqrst says: well, are you sure you should be here? Ruel will understand, right?
[2:50:49 PM] kaiyaqrst says: oh no! of course i should be here! this is way more important.
[2:50:53 PM] kaiyaqrst says: how've you been?
[2:51:37 PM] bethqrst says: Fine, I guess.
What do you think is taking so long?
[2:53:06 PM] kaiyaqrst says: who knows! i think doctors are paid to be slow. - i'm sure they're getting paid by the hour.
[2:53:56 PM] bethqrst says: or by the year...
[2:54:18 PM] bethqrst says: sorry, I'll shut up
[2:55:47 PM] kaiyaqrst says: so you might as well tell me what's going on with you. and be more specific! none of this "fine, i guess" crap. we do have a year or two before we get called in
[2:56:13 PM] kaiyaqrst says: any good looking guys?
[2:57:11 PM] bethqrst says: ha! Not really, they're all starting to look the same. Is that just something senior boys do??
[2:58:41 PM] kaiyaqrst says: i'm pretty sure it is. that must be what they teach them in grade five when they separate the boys and the girls for sex ed.
[2:59:37 PM] bethqrst says: Must be!! Seriously. Definite lack of cuteness in that department.
[3:00:19 PM] kaiyaqrst says: and the ones who actually are cute are jerks. always. no exceptions.
[3:00:25 PM] kaiyaqrst says: or are taken
[3:00:59 PM] bethqrst says: I'm sure you're dealing with a ton of worthwhile guys at college, though.
[3:02:55 PM] kaiyaqrst says: you'd think so, but no. not yet. they're all the same. (as each other, and as they were before)
[3:02:56 PM] kaiyaqrst says: :(
[3:03:43 PM] bethqrst says: That's unlucky.
[3:04:49 PM] kaiyaqrst says: tell me about it. what are the chances? out of that many guys, none of them are worthwhile
[3:05:11 PM] bethqrst says: At least not yet.
Um, I think my legs are cramping up.
[3:06:12 PM] kaiyaqrst says: mine too. and my feet are cold. you'd think they'd turn the heat up in here.
[3:06:33 PM] bethqrst says: Nope. It's a hospital, so you know, they want to remind you of death as much as possible.
[3:06:55 PM] bethqrst says: Sorry. I try to get all this sort of stuff off my chest before I go in to see Ruel. She doesn't need that.
[3:08:59 PM] kaiyaqrst says: how long have we been sitting here?
[3:09:59 PM] bethqrst says: It's coming up on half an hour, I think. And I was here fifteen minutes before you were.
[3:10:36 PM] kaiyaqrst says: oh god. the wait is just making it worse.
[3:10:50 PM] kaiyaqrst says: wait here comes a nurse... and there she goes.
[3:10:56 PM] kaiyaqrst says: i hate when they do that
[3:11:10 PM] bethqrst says: Me too. They must know what they're doing to us.
[3:11:55 PM] bethqrst says: You know, this is starting to get me kind of anxious. if it's taking this long, it might mean they've, I don't know, detected something.
[3:12:09 PM] bethqrst says: Routine check-ups don't take this long, do they?
[3:13:01 PM] kaiyaqrst says: i didn't think so. oh... don't make me more nervous than i already am
[3:13:13 PM] bethqrst says: Sorry.
[3:13:28 PM] bethqrst says: You know, she didn't know we were coming today. I don't know. I think I should leave.
[3:13:45 PM] kaiyaqrst says: what! no! why?
[3:14:10 PM] bethqrst says: I don't want to be here. I mean, I want to "be here," you know, for Ruel, but if I left and came back tomorrow instead, she'd never know.
[3:14:45 PM] bethqrst says: and we haven't visited her together in so long, two people might be overwhelming. So I'll pass this one off to you.
[3:15:51 PM] kaiyaqrst says: NONONONONONONONO don't! i can't go in alone. the wait would kill me. i can't do it. please don't leave
[3:16:11 PM] kaiyaqrst says: she wan't to see us both!
[3:17:28 PM] bethqrst says: she's seemed fine enough seeing us separate. its been easier than i thought it would be...
[3:17:45 PM] kaiyaqrst says: please!
[3:19:47 PM] bethqrst says: i will be back tomorrow, right after school. if you want to come then, then come -- then we'll both be here by more than coincidence and convenient schedules.
[3:19:53 PM] bethqrst says: good luck with your two stressful essays.
[3:21:00 PM] kaiyaqrst says: but we can't leave! it doesn't matter if SHE knows or not! i can't go tommorrow. i'm seeing my mom.
[3:22:47 PM] bethqrst says: sorry you're so busy. goodbye. call me if you want.
[2:41:22 PM] kaiyaqrst says: hello
[2:42:04 PM] bethqrst says: Oh, so you did come!
[2:42:14 PM] bethqrst says: I didn't know if we'd run into each other.
[2:42:20 PM] kaiyaqrst says: i told you i would!
[2:43:08 PM] bethqrst says: I know, but you've been pretty busy. I just wasn't sure, that's all
[2:43:28 PM] bethqrst says: they said we could go in in a few minutes; I guess they're doing some check-up sort of stuff.
[2:44:09 PM] kaiyaqrst says: ohh i'm nervous. do we really have to?
[2:44:58 PM] bethqrst says: well, don't you want to see her? they won't leave her deformed or anything.
[2:45:41 PM] kaiyaqrst says: i know. i do. i just don't like seeing her like this. it makes me all shakey
[2:46:00 PM] bethqrst says: Yeah, you'd think we'd get used to it.
[2:46:12 PM] bethqrst says: but how's school?
[2:46:23 PM] kaiyaqrst says: i don't think you can get used to it.
[2:46:34 PM] bethqrst says: I hope not.
[2:46:36 PM] kaiyaqrst says: it's been... terrible.
[2:46:41 PM] kaiyaqrst says: school
[2:46:57 PM] kaiyaqrst says: too much work, not enough time to do any of it
[2:47:07 PM] bethqrst says: but you love school....all you do is rave about Noelle....
[2:47:28 PM] bethqrst says: just had a rough few weeks? I figured I would have heard from you sooner, if it was THAT bad...
[2:47:54 PM] kaiyaqrst says: haha. i rave about noelle, yes. but not the actual school part.
[2:48:06 PM] bethqrst says: well, who does.
[2:48:11 PM] kaiyaqrst says: no, it's not that bad. i just have to write 2 essays for tommorrow
[2:49:49 PM] bethqrst says: well, are you sure you should be here? Ruel will understand, right?
[2:50:49 PM] kaiyaqrst says: oh no! of course i should be here! this is way more important.
[2:50:53 PM] kaiyaqrst says: how've you been?
[2:51:37 PM] bethqrst says: Fine, I guess.
What do you think is taking so long?
[2:53:06 PM] kaiyaqrst says: who knows! i think doctors are paid to be slow. - i'm sure they're getting paid by the hour.
[2:53:56 PM] bethqrst says: or by the year...
[2:54:18 PM] bethqrst says: sorry, I'll shut up
[2:55:47 PM] kaiyaqrst says: so you might as well tell me what's going on with you. and be more specific! none of this "fine, i guess" crap. we do have a year or two before we get called in
[2:56:13 PM] kaiyaqrst says: any good looking guys?
[2:57:11 PM] bethqrst says: ha! Not really, they're all starting to look the same. Is that just something senior boys do??
[2:58:41 PM] kaiyaqrst says: i'm pretty sure it is. that must be what they teach them in grade five when they separate the boys and the girls for sex ed.
[2:59:37 PM] bethqrst says: Must be!! Seriously. Definite lack of cuteness in that department.
[3:00:19 PM] kaiyaqrst says: and the ones who actually are cute are jerks. always. no exceptions.
[3:00:25 PM] kaiyaqrst says: or are taken
[3:00:59 PM] bethqrst says: I'm sure you're dealing with a ton of worthwhile guys at college, though.
[3:02:55 PM] kaiyaqrst says: you'd think so, but no. not yet. they're all the same. (as each other, and as they were before)
[3:02:56 PM] kaiyaqrst says: :(
[3:03:43 PM] bethqrst says: That's unlucky.
[3:04:49 PM] kaiyaqrst says: tell me about it. what are the chances? out of that many guys, none of them are worthwhile
[3:05:11 PM] bethqrst says: At least not yet.
Um, I think my legs are cramping up.
[3:06:12 PM] kaiyaqrst says: mine too. and my feet are cold. you'd think they'd turn the heat up in here.
[3:06:33 PM] bethqrst says: Nope. It's a hospital, so you know, they want to remind you of death as much as possible.
[3:06:55 PM] bethqrst says: Sorry. I try to get all this sort of stuff off my chest before I go in to see Ruel. She doesn't need that.
[3:08:59 PM] kaiyaqrst says: how long have we been sitting here?
[3:09:59 PM] bethqrst says: It's coming up on half an hour, I think. And I was here fifteen minutes before you were.
[3:10:36 PM] kaiyaqrst says: oh god. the wait is just making it worse.
[3:10:50 PM] kaiyaqrst says: wait here comes a nurse... and there she goes.
[3:10:56 PM] kaiyaqrst says: i hate when they do that
[3:11:10 PM] bethqrst says: Me too. They must know what they're doing to us.
[3:11:55 PM] bethqrst says: You know, this is starting to get me kind of anxious. if it's taking this long, it might mean they've, I don't know, detected something.
[3:12:09 PM] bethqrst says: Routine check-ups don't take this long, do they?
[3:13:01 PM] kaiyaqrst says: i didn't think so. oh... don't make me more nervous than i already am
[3:13:13 PM] bethqrst says: Sorry.
[3:13:28 PM] bethqrst says: You know, she didn't know we were coming today. I don't know. I think I should leave.
[3:13:45 PM] kaiyaqrst says: what! no! why?
[3:14:10 PM] bethqrst says: I don't want to be here. I mean, I want to "be here," you know, for Ruel, but if I left and came back tomorrow instead, she'd never know.
[3:14:45 PM] bethqrst says: and we haven't visited her together in so long, two people might be overwhelming. So I'll pass this one off to you.
[3:15:51 PM] kaiyaqrst says: NONONONONONONONO don't! i can't go in alone. the wait would kill me. i can't do it. please don't leave
[3:16:11 PM] kaiyaqrst says: she wan't to see us both!
[3:17:28 PM] bethqrst says: she's seemed fine enough seeing us separate. its been easier than i thought it would be...
[3:17:45 PM] kaiyaqrst says: please!
[3:19:47 PM] bethqrst says: i will be back tomorrow, right after school. if you want to come then, then come -- then we'll both be here by more than coincidence and convenient schedules.
[3:19:53 PM] bethqrst says: good luck with your two stressful essays.
[3:21:00 PM] kaiyaqrst says: but we can't leave! it doesn't matter if SHE knows or not! i can't go tommorrow. i'm seeing my mom.
[3:22:47 PM] bethqrst says: sorry you're so busy. goodbye. call me if you want.
Monday, October 22, 2007
Chat #6 gretchen and noelle (molly and marybeth)
[10:30:27 PM] noelle: hey
[10:30:43 PM] gretchenqrst says: hey
[10:30:48 PM] gretchenqrst says: how've ya been?
[10:31:00 PM] noelleqrst says: pretty good. and you?
[10:31:15 PM] gretchenqrst says: not bad.
[10:31:24 PM] noelleqrst says: are your dandelions still fresh?
[10:32:00 PM] gretchenqrst says: not really. they're sort of droopy
[10:32:29 PM] noelleqrst says: bummer. you should demand new ones. promptly.
[10:32:54 PM] gretchenqrst says: i don't know how much he'd appreciate that
[10:33:58 PM] noelleqrst says: oh, come on. what else has he got to do?
[10:34:19 PM] gretchenqrst says: this is true.
[10:34:23 PM] gretchenqrst says: oh wait... GET A JOB
[10:34:47 PM] noelleqrst says: oh yeah... that.
[10:36:38 PM] noelleqrst says: is he even trying to get a job?
[10:39:43 PM] gretchenqrst says: He says he is, but i don't know how hard
[10:39:57 PM] gretchenqrst says: have you done anything interesting lately?
[10:41:09 PM] noelleqrst says: just been studying for french, but you arent going to change the subject that easily. if hes not looking hard for a job, what's he doing? have you been spending a lot of time with him?
[10:45:01 PM] gretchenqrst says: he's not doing all that much from what i can tell. picking dandylions? wandering around.
[10:47:00 PM] gretchenqrst says: i've been seeing him as much as i can. in between school and homework
[10:48:06 PM] noelleqrst says: yeah, junior year is tight like that.
[10:48:30 PM] noelleqrst says: it helps to have a respite. aka a boy.
[10:48:53 PM] gretchenqrst says: this is true.
[10:49:01 PM] gretchenqrst says: how's your school going?
[10:49:16 PM] noelleqrst says: its good.
[10:49:33 PM] gretchenqrst says: wow. you're unspecific today
[10:50:42 PM] noelleqrst says: sorry? it's school, you know. mostly intro classes, nothing especially interesting.
[10:52:11 PM] gretchenqrst says: do you miss chicago?
[10:52:59 PM] noelleqrst says: new york is fun. theres more... well everything.
[10:53:10 PM] gretchenqrst says: like what?
[10:53:54 PM] noelleqrst says: you know, stuff to do... opportunities... people. everything.
[10:54:28 PM] gretchenqrst says: have you met any new friends? any boys?
[10:55:33 PM] noelleqrst says: umm. well my roommate kaiya is nice...
[10:55:49 PM] gretchenqrst says: and the second question....
[10:56:46 PM] noelleqrst says: yeah, ive met boys. its a coed school. theres an entire floor of them right below me.
[10:57:04 PM] gretchenqrst says: anyone special?
[10:57:18 PM] noelleqrst says: define special.
[10:59:11 PM] gretchenqrst says: oh god. come on! special:1. distinguished or different from what is ordinary or usual: a special occasion; to fix something special.
2. extraordinary; exceptional, as in amount or degree; especial: special importance.
3. being such in an exceptional degree; particularly valued: a special friend.
[11:00:39 PM] noelleqrst says: distinguished or different, extraordinary, exeptional.... i guess.... maybe
[11:00:54 PM] gretchenqrst says: elaborate...!!
[11:01:46 PM] noelleqrst says: every girl loves a boy with an accent, right?
[11:01:54 PM] gretchenqrst says: right
[11:02:04 PM] noelleqrst says: french accents... are no exeption
[11:02:26 PM] gretchenqrst says: mmm what's his name?
[11:04:18 PM] noelleqrst says: ok i was just supposed to get tutoring from him, because this french class is really fast paced, but... i ended up learning more about adrian than french...
[11:04:54 PM] gretchenqrst says: adrian eh? doesn't sound very french
[11:05:08 PM] noelleqrst says: adrien if you want it to be spelled french
[11:05:31 PM] gretchenqrst says: well, how does he spell it?
[11:05:40 PM] noelleqrst says: i dunno, ive never asked...
[11:06:00 PM] noelleqrst says: the spelling of names was never really a priority, to be honest
[11:06:18 PM] gretchenqrst says: preoccupied with other things? ;)
[11:06:33 PM] noelleqrst says: wouldnt you like to know, hahaha
[11:07:05 PM] noelleqrst says: hes got this really cool appartment in greenwich village
[11:07:40 PM] gretchenqrst says: and i assume you spend all your time there.
[11:07:40 PM] noelleqrst says: its way nicer than the dorms, so im over there kind of a lot...
[11:08:27 PM] gretchenqrst says: doing more than studying
[11:08:31 PM] gretchenqrst says: i'm sure
[11:08:36 PM] noelleqrst says: apparently french class is harder than i expected!
[11:09:13 PM] gretchenqrst says: well no kidding, if your tutor isn't teaching you, but throwing partys instead
[11:09:14 PM] noelleqrst says: actually...
[11:09:29 PM] gretchenqrst says: what?
[11:10:04 PM] noelleqrst says: Adrien asked me if i want to move in... since im over there all the time anyway, you know?
[11:10:20 PM] noelleqrst says: and the dorms do kinda stink...
[11:10:28 PM] gretchenqrst says: are you going to?
[11:11:04 PM] noelleqrst says: i dont know. mom would flip.
[11:11:14 PM] noelleqrst says: oh yeah, so that means dont tell her about this.
[11:11:23 PM] gretchenqrst says: i won't tell her
[11:11:43 PM] gretchenqrst says: do you love him?
[11:12:30 PM] noelleqrst says: ... i think so. i havent known him that long.. but aw man gretchen, you should meet him, he's amazing.
[11:13:30 PM] noelleqrst says: kaiya's not so sure about all this. maybe she just doesnt want her roomie to bail.
[11:13:39 PM] noelleqrst says: i would feel bad about that
[11:13:42 PM] gretchenqrst says: will she have to pay more?
[11:14:49 PM] noelleqrst says: kaiya? i dont think so. i think its a flat price for room and board. its more the lack of our amazing adventures that would be a bummer if i move
[11:15:23 PM] gretchenqrst says: oh i see. what kind of adventures?
[11:18:04 PM] noelleqrst says: whip cream faces for every sleeping freshman, large posters of strange creatures appearing on people's beds when they pull back the covers, finding new ways to mess with people in elevators... oh so many good things like that
[11:18:51 PM] gretchenqrst says: that's incredible. i love it! what elevator tricks have you come up with?
[11:21:18 PM] noelleqrst says: we hid a tape recorder in it one time playing a man's voice making lewd comments in there one time, and every time a woman came out of the elevator she'd look all mad and flustered. i think one of them actually slapped another man one time, ha... he was so confused...
[11:21:52 PM] gretchenqrst says: oh man! that's hillarious!
[11:22:00 PM] gretchenqrst says: nothing exciting ever happens here
[11:22:33 PM] noelleqrst says: maybe you should be less boring. go be exciting yourself
[11:23:14 PM] gretchenqrst says: but there's never anything exciting to do!
[11:23:23 PM] noelleqrst says: slushies happen to be very exciting
[11:23:29 PM] gretchenqrst says: oh?
[11:24:31 PM] noelleqrst says: they do. trust me. you can even mix flavors and they explode with dual sugary goodness!
[11:24:45 PM] noelleqrst says: tell me that doesnt sound exciting?
[11:25:12 PM] gretchenqrst says: delicious. but nothing beats cherry and coke. how could you mess with a classic?
[11:25:27 PM] noelleqrst says: i suppose. i suppose.
[11:25:48 PM] noelleqrst says: justin has to be keeping you amused to some extent, though
[11:25:56 PM] noelleqrst says: it cant be that boring
[11:26:48 PM] gretchenqrst says: yeah, he is. and it's not. but i guess i just can't imagine what it would be like to live in new york, and i figure it must be that much better than here.
[11:27:19 PM] noelleqrst says: not necesarily. its all what you make of it
[11:27:34 PM] gretchenqrst says: any suggestions?
[11:28:29 PM] noelleqrst says: telling your sister all about the previously named male companion can be quite fun
[11:29:09 PM] gretchenqrst says: well, what do you want to know?
[11:29:23 PM] noelleqrst says: you guys have been together a while, right?
[11:29:30 PM] gretchenqrst says: yes
[11:30:42 PM] noelleqrst says: you must be really into him?
[11:30:54 PM] gretchenqrst says: very much so :)
[11:31:22 PM] noelleqrst says: just how much are you?
[11:32:16 PM] gretchenqrst says: well, really a lot. i don't like looking too far into the future... but i think i might see one... if that makes sense
[11:33:15 PM] noelleqrst says: yeah, it makes sense
[11:33:25 PM] noelleqrst says: you gotta be careful, though, gretch
[11:33:42 PM] gretchenqrst says: what do you mean?
[11:33:58 PM] noelleqrst says: you've got your own future, too.
[11:34:16 PM] gretchenqrst says: i know. but i wouldn't be much of one without him
[11:34:54 PM] noelleqrst says: well if hes gonna mess around and do nothing for a year, its cool. but eventually he has to do something, and so do you
[11:35:09 PM] gretchenqrst says: believe me, that
[11:35:16 PM] gretchenqrst says: 's what i've been telling him
[11:36:06 PM] gretchenqrst says: i don't like him not doing anything. eventually he's just gonna run out of money and won't be able to do anything
[11:37:00 PM] noelleqrst says: and that could be bad news for you, too, if you get in too deep
[11:37:54 PM] gretchenqrst says: i won't let him dig into my funds. oh, well... i suppose that's not true. at least not too much?
[11:37:57 PM] gretchenqrst says: i know i know
[11:38:00 PM] gretchenqrst says: i'm terrible
[11:38:11 PM] noelleqrst says: hes been borrowing your money?!
[11:38:14 PM] noelleqrst says: Gretch!
[11:39:01 PM] gretchenqrst says: not alot? really, only lunch here and there
[11:40:04 PM] noelleqrst says: Him spending his own money is one thing, but you cant fund his sitting around doing nothing
[11:40:33 PM] gretchenqrst says: he said he's going to get a job soon. he has been looking.
[11:40:49 PM] noelleqrst says: you said yourself you dont know how hard hes lookin
[11:40:49 PM] noelleqrst says: g
[11:41:13 PM] gretchenqrst says: but at least i know that he is. someone's bound to hire him
[11:41:48 PM] noelleqrst says: a job isnt going to just leap into his hand if hes not really making a good attempt at finding one
[11:42:13 PM] gretchenqrst says: i've considered making resumes for him and giving them out
[11:42:33 PM] noelleqrst says: great, so you provide his finances and his job search
[11:42:58 PM] gretchenqrst says: at least the job search will stop me providing his finances
[11:43:04 PM] noelleqrst says: you've already got your own schoolwork, you can't take care of him, too.
[11:43:19 PM] gretchenqrst says: someone has to
[11:43:28 PM] noelleqrst says: yeah, him
[11:43:39 PM] gretchenqrst says: but he isn't
[11:44:04 PM] noelleqrst says: well no wonder if he can just let you do all the work. he'll never get up on his own if you're holding his hand the whole way
[11:44:24 PM] noelleqrst says: his future is not your job. your future is your job.
[11:44:45 PM] gretchenqrst says: well what am i supposed to do? i can't leave him to sit on the streets!
[11:45:10 PM] noelleqrst says: he's a big boy. if the street gets too hard he'll get his sorry butt up and find his own job.
[11:45:28 PM] gretchenqrst says: but i couldn't do that to him. i love him
[11:45:45 PM] gretchenqrst says: he'll figure it out eventually
[11:46:02 PM] noelleqrst says: you're right, he will. you hafta let him
[11:46:31 PM] noelleqrst says: you're enabling him, and its not good for you either
[11:47:11 PM] gretchenqrst says: but i don't know how long it'll take. besides, i'm not doing that much for him. just helping him out a little bit. i've told him he needs to get a job, and i'll keep pressing it
[11:47:25 PM] gretchenqrst says: what more can i do?
[11:47:49 PM] noelleqrst says: not give him money, i'll tell you that
[11:48:19 PM] gretchenqrst says: okay, i'll give you that. i will stop.
[11:48:25 PM] noelleqrst says: good
[11:48:26 PM] gretchenqrst says: ....but what if he starves?
[11:48:35 PM] noelleqrst says: oh please, hes still living at home
[11:49:23 PM] noelleqrst says: and besides, if hes hungry at lunch time then maybe he'll get some motivation to get a job.
[11:49:46 PM] gretchenqrst says: fine. you win
[11:50:20 PM] noelleqrst says: as usual (flex)
[11:51:07 PM] gretchenqrst says: if there was a "sticking tounge out at" emoticon i would use it
[11:51:20 PM] noelleqrst says: :P i win again.
[11:51:57 PM] gretchenqrst says: that's a silly sticking toung out at. i want a "you stink something awful' sticking tounge out at
[11:52:10 PM] noelleqrst says: then invent it yourself
[11:52:25 PM] gretchenqrst says: maybe i will...
[11:52:25 PM] noelleqrst says: ah! somebody's calling me!
[11:52:34 PM] noelleqrst says: i gotta go, ill talk to you later, k?
[11:52:52 PM] gretchenqrst says: okay. talk to you... tommorrow?
[11:53:11 PM] noelleqrst says: i might be at adrien's...
[11:53:23 PM] gretchenqrst says: he doesn't have a computer?
[11:54:00 PM] noelleqrst says: yeah.. but... ok fine. ill see. soon, either way
[11:54:26 PM] gretchenqrst says: haha alright. sorry to cut into your....fun
[11:54:38 PM] noelleqrst says: i forgive you
[11:54:46 PM] gretchenqrst says: :D
[11:54:49 PM] gretchenqrst says: bye
[11:54:50 PM] noelleqrst says: love! bye
[10:30:43 PM] gretchenqrst says: hey
[10:30:48 PM] gretchenqrst says: how've ya been?
[10:31:00 PM] noelleqrst says: pretty good. and you?
[10:31:15 PM] gretchenqrst says: not bad.
[10:31:24 PM] noelleqrst says: are your dandelions still fresh?
[10:32:00 PM] gretchenqrst says: not really. they're sort of droopy
[10:32:29 PM] noelleqrst says: bummer. you should demand new ones. promptly.
[10:32:54 PM] gretchenqrst says: i don't know how much he'd appreciate that
[10:33:58 PM] noelleqrst says: oh, come on. what else has he got to do?
[10:34:19 PM] gretchenqrst says: this is true.
[10:34:23 PM] gretchenqrst says: oh wait... GET A JOB
[10:34:47 PM] noelleqrst says: oh yeah... that.
[10:36:38 PM] noelleqrst says: is he even trying to get a job?
[10:39:43 PM] gretchenqrst says: He says he is, but i don't know how hard
[10:39:57 PM] gretchenqrst says: have you done anything interesting lately?
[10:41:09 PM] noelleqrst says: just been studying for french, but you arent going to change the subject that easily. if hes not looking hard for a job, what's he doing? have you been spending a lot of time with him?
[10:45:01 PM] gretchenqrst says: he's not doing all that much from what i can tell. picking dandylions? wandering around.
[10:47:00 PM] gretchenqrst says: i've been seeing him as much as i can. in between school and homework
[10:48:06 PM] noelleqrst says: yeah, junior year is tight like that.
[10:48:30 PM] noelleqrst says: it helps to have a respite. aka a boy.
[10:48:53 PM] gretchenqrst says: this is true.
[10:49:01 PM] gretchenqrst says: how's your school going?
[10:49:16 PM] noelleqrst says: its good.
[10:49:33 PM] gretchenqrst says: wow. you're unspecific today
[10:50:42 PM] noelleqrst says: sorry? it's school, you know. mostly intro classes, nothing especially interesting.
[10:52:11 PM] gretchenqrst says: do you miss chicago?
[10:52:59 PM] noelleqrst says: new york is fun. theres more... well everything.
[10:53:10 PM] gretchenqrst says: like what?
[10:53:54 PM] noelleqrst says: you know, stuff to do... opportunities... people. everything.
[10:54:28 PM] gretchenqrst says: have you met any new friends? any boys?
[10:55:33 PM] noelleqrst says: umm. well my roommate kaiya is nice...
[10:55:49 PM] gretchenqrst says: and the second question....
[10:56:46 PM] noelleqrst says: yeah, ive met boys. its a coed school. theres an entire floor of them right below me.
[10:57:04 PM] gretchenqrst says: anyone special?
[10:57:18 PM] noelleqrst says: define special.
[10:59:11 PM] gretchenqrst says: oh god. come on! special:1. distinguished or different from what is ordinary or usual: a special occasion; to fix something special.
2. extraordinary; exceptional, as in amount or degree; especial: special importance.
3. being such in an exceptional degree; particularly valued: a special friend.
[11:00:39 PM] noelleqrst says: distinguished or different, extraordinary, exeptional.... i guess.... maybe
[11:00:54 PM] gretchenqrst says: elaborate...!!
[11:01:46 PM] noelleqrst says: every girl loves a boy with an accent, right?
[11:01:54 PM] gretchenqrst says: right
[11:02:04 PM] noelleqrst says: french accents... are no exeption
[11:02:26 PM] gretchenqrst says: mmm what's his name?
[11:04:18 PM] noelleqrst says: ok i was just supposed to get tutoring from him, because this french class is really fast paced, but... i ended up learning more about adrian than french...
[11:04:54 PM] gretchenqrst says: adrian eh? doesn't sound very french
[11:05:08 PM] noelleqrst says: adrien if you want it to be spelled french
[11:05:31 PM] gretchenqrst says: well, how does he spell it?
[11:05:40 PM] noelleqrst says: i dunno, ive never asked...
[11:06:00 PM] noelleqrst says: the spelling of names was never really a priority, to be honest
[11:06:18 PM] gretchenqrst says: preoccupied with other things? ;)
[11:06:33 PM] noelleqrst says: wouldnt you like to know, hahaha
[11:07:05 PM] noelleqrst says: hes got this really cool appartment in greenwich village
[11:07:40 PM] gretchenqrst says: and i assume you spend all your time there.
[11:07:40 PM] noelleqrst says: its way nicer than the dorms, so im over there kind of a lot...
[11:08:27 PM] gretchenqrst says: doing more than studying
[11:08:31 PM] gretchenqrst says: i'm sure
[11:08:36 PM] noelleqrst says: apparently french class is harder than i expected!
[11:09:13 PM] gretchenqrst says: well no kidding, if your tutor isn't teaching you, but throwing partys instead
[11:09:14 PM] noelleqrst says: actually...
[11:09:29 PM] gretchenqrst says: what?
[11:10:04 PM] noelleqrst says: Adrien asked me if i want to move in... since im over there all the time anyway, you know?
[11:10:20 PM] noelleqrst says: and the dorms do kinda stink...
[11:10:28 PM] gretchenqrst says: are you going to?
[11:11:04 PM] noelleqrst says: i dont know. mom would flip.
[11:11:14 PM] noelleqrst says: oh yeah, so that means dont tell her about this.
[11:11:23 PM] gretchenqrst says: i won't tell her
[11:11:43 PM] gretchenqrst says: do you love him?
[11:12:30 PM] noelleqrst says: ... i think so. i havent known him that long.. but aw man gretchen, you should meet him, he's amazing.
[11:13:30 PM] noelleqrst says: kaiya's not so sure about all this. maybe she just doesnt want her roomie to bail.
[11:13:39 PM] noelleqrst says: i would feel bad about that
[11:13:42 PM] gretchenqrst says: will she have to pay more?
[11:14:49 PM] noelleqrst says: kaiya? i dont think so. i think its a flat price for room and board. its more the lack of our amazing adventures that would be a bummer if i move
[11:15:23 PM] gretchenqrst says: oh i see. what kind of adventures?
[11:18:04 PM] noelleqrst says: whip cream faces for every sleeping freshman, large posters of strange creatures appearing on people's beds when they pull back the covers, finding new ways to mess with people in elevators... oh so many good things like that
[11:18:51 PM] gretchenqrst says: that's incredible. i love it! what elevator tricks have you come up with?
[11:21:18 PM] noelleqrst says: we hid a tape recorder in it one time playing a man's voice making lewd comments in there one time, and every time a woman came out of the elevator she'd look all mad and flustered. i think one of them actually slapped another man one time, ha... he was so confused...
[11:21:52 PM] gretchenqrst says: oh man! that's hillarious!
[11:22:00 PM] gretchenqrst says: nothing exciting ever happens here
[11:22:33 PM] noelleqrst says: maybe you should be less boring. go be exciting yourself
[11:23:14 PM] gretchenqrst says: but there's never anything exciting to do!
[11:23:23 PM] noelleqrst says: slushies happen to be very exciting
[11:23:29 PM] gretchenqrst says: oh?
[11:24:31 PM] noelleqrst says: they do. trust me. you can even mix flavors and they explode with dual sugary goodness!
[11:24:45 PM] noelleqrst says: tell me that doesnt sound exciting?
[11:25:12 PM] gretchenqrst says: delicious. but nothing beats cherry and coke. how could you mess with a classic?
[11:25:27 PM] noelleqrst says: i suppose. i suppose.
[11:25:48 PM] noelleqrst says: justin has to be keeping you amused to some extent, though
[11:25:56 PM] noelleqrst says: it cant be that boring
[11:26:48 PM] gretchenqrst says: yeah, he is. and it's not. but i guess i just can't imagine what it would be like to live in new york, and i figure it must be that much better than here.
[11:27:19 PM] noelleqrst says: not necesarily. its all what you make of it
[11:27:34 PM] gretchenqrst says: any suggestions?
[11:28:29 PM] noelleqrst says: telling your sister all about the previously named male companion can be quite fun
[11:29:09 PM] gretchenqrst says: well, what do you want to know?
[11:29:23 PM] noelleqrst says: you guys have been together a while, right?
[11:29:30 PM] gretchenqrst says: yes
[11:30:42 PM] noelleqrst says: you must be really into him?
[11:30:54 PM] gretchenqrst says: very much so :)
[11:31:22 PM] noelleqrst says: just how much are you?
[11:32:16 PM] gretchenqrst says: well, really a lot. i don't like looking too far into the future... but i think i might see one... if that makes sense
[11:33:15 PM] noelleqrst says: yeah, it makes sense
[11:33:25 PM] noelleqrst says: you gotta be careful, though, gretch
[11:33:42 PM] gretchenqrst says: what do you mean?
[11:33:58 PM] noelleqrst says: you've got your own future, too.
[11:34:16 PM] gretchenqrst says: i know. but i wouldn't be much of one without him
[11:34:54 PM] noelleqrst says: well if hes gonna mess around and do nothing for a year, its cool. but eventually he has to do something, and so do you
[11:35:09 PM] gretchenqrst says: believe me, that
[11:35:16 PM] gretchenqrst says: 's what i've been telling him
[11:36:06 PM] gretchenqrst says: i don't like him not doing anything. eventually he's just gonna run out of money and won't be able to do anything
[11:37:00 PM] noelleqrst says: and that could be bad news for you, too, if you get in too deep
[11:37:54 PM] gretchenqrst says: i won't let him dig into my funds. oh, well... i suppose that's not true. at least not too much?
[11:37:57 PM] gretchenqrst says: i know i know
[11:38:00 PM] gretchenqrst says: i'm terrible
[11:38:11 PM] noelleqrst says: hes been borrowing your money?!
[11:38:14 PM] noelleqrst says: Gretch!
[11:39:01 PM] gretchenqrst says: not alot? really, only lunch here and there
[11:40:04 PM] noelleqrst says: Him spending his own money is one thing, but you cant fund his sitting around doing nothing
[11:40:33 PM] gretchenqrst says: he said he's going to get a job soon. he has been looking.
[11:40:49 PM] noelleqrst says: you said yourself you dont know how hard hes lookin
[11:40:49 PM] noelleqrst says: g
[11:41:13 PM] gretchenqrst says: but at least i know that he is. someone's bound to hire him
[11:41:48 PM] noelleqrst says: a job isnt going to just leap into his hand if hes not really making a good attempt at finding one
[11:42:13 PM] gretchenqrst says: i've considered making resumes for him and giving them out
[11:42:33 PM] noelleqrst says: great, so you provide his finances and his job search
[11:42:58 PM] gretchenqrst says: at least the job search will stop me providing his finances
[11:43:04 PM] noelleqrst says: you've already got your own schoolwork, you can't take care of him, too.
[11:43:19 PM] gretchenqrst says: someone has to
[11:43:28 PM] noelleqrst says: yeah, him
[11:43:39 PM] gretchenqrst says: but he isn't
[11:44:04 PM] noelleqrst says: well no wonder if he can just let you do all the work. he'll never get up on his own if you're holding his hand the whole way
[11:44:24 PM] noelleqrst says: his future is not your job. your future is your job.
[11:44:45 PM] gretchenqrst says: well what am i supposed to do? i can't leave him to sit on the streets!
[11:45:10 PM] noelleqrst says: he's a big boy. if the street gets too hard he'll get his sorry butt up and find his own job.
[11:45:28 PM] gretchenqrst says: but i couldn't do that to him. i love him
[11:45:45 PM] gretchenqrst says: he'll figure it out eventually
[11:46:02 PM] noelleqrst says: you're right, he will. you hafta let him
[11:46:31 PM] noelleqrst says: you're enabling him, and its not good for you either
[11:47:11 PM] gretchenqrst says: but i don't know how long it'll take. besides, i'm not doing that much for him. just helping him out a little bit. i've told him he needs to get a job, and i'll keep pressing it
[11:47:25 PM] gretchenqrst says: what more can i do?
[11:47:49 PM] noelleqrst says: not give him money, i'll tell you that
[11:48:19 PM] gretchenqrst says: okay, i'll give you that. i will stop.
[11:48:25 PM] noelleqrst says: good
[11:48:26 PM] gretchenqrst says: ....but what if he starves?
[11:48:35 PM] noelleqrst says: oh please, hes still living at home
[11:49:23 PM] noelleqrst says: and besides, if hes hungry at lunch time then maybe he'll get some motivation to get a job.
[11:49:46 PM] gretchenqrst says: fine. you win
[11:50:20 PM] noelleqrst says: as usual (flex)
[11:51:07 PM] gretchenqrst says: if there was a "sticking tounge out at" emoticon i would use it
[11:51:20 PM] noelleqrst says: :P i win again.
[11:51:57 PM] gretchenqrst says: that's a silly sticking toung out at. i want a "you stink something awful' sticking tounge out at
[11:52:10 PM] noelleqrst says: then invent it yourself
[11:52:25 PM] gretchenqrst says: maybe i will...
[11:52:25 PM] noelleqrst says: ah! somebody's calling me!
[11:52:34 PM] noelleqrst says: i gotta go, ill talk to you later, k?
[11:52:52 PM] gretchenqrst says: okay. talk to you... tommorrow?
[11:53:11 PM] noelleqrst says: i might be at adrien's...
[11:53:23 PM] gretchenqrst says: he doesn't have a computer?
[11:54:00 PM] noelleqrst says: yeah.. but... ok fine. ill see. soon, either way
[11:54:26 PM] gretchenqrst says: haha alright. sorry to cut into your....fun
[11:54:38 PM] noelleqrst says: i forgive you
[11:54:46 PM] gretchenqrst says: :D
[11:54:49 PM] gretchenqrst says: bye
[11:54:50 PM] noelleqrst says: love! bye
Thursday, October 18, 2007
chat #5 (on 2nd life!)
a plot twist.... danny and i figured out that the reason sam got into 2nd life was because he discovered elliot's username and password and signed in as him one day to see if he could figure out anything more about him... then Reul (whose 2nd Life name is Aloe) messaged him and he had to go with the flow and pretend he was Elliot... the dialogue below is an example of how that first conversation might have gone... danny and i tried it in 2nd life, but both being new to it had a lot of tech problems... anyhow, here's the chat... what do you think of the plot twist?
[21:32] Aloe Lefavre: bolo!
[21:33] Aloe Lefavre: it's been eons!
[21:33] Aloe Lefavre: i've missed my flying partner!
[21:33] Aloe Lefavre: bolo?
[21:36] Aloe Lefavre: you there ?
[21:40] Aloe Lefavre: coucou!
[21:45] Aloe Lefavre: bolo!!!!!
[21:47] Aloe Lefavre: ?
[21:47] Bolo Ganesvoort: hello
[21:47] Aloe Lefavre: hi!
[21:47] Aloe Lefavre: i thought you'd died or something!
[21:47] Aloe Lefavre: went back to your real life or something!
[21:48] Bolo Ganesvoort: ha yeah, just some technical difficulties
[21:48] Bolo Ganesvoort: whats going on?
[21:48] Aloe Lefavre: meet in our spot?
[21:50] Aloe Lefavre: bolo?
[21:51] Aloe Lefavre: look, if you're sick of me or something you could just say so...
[21:54] Aloe Lefavre: ?
[21:54] Second Life: User not online - message will be stored and delivered later.
[22:00] Bolo Ganesvoort: hello
[22:00] Aloe Lefavre: finally
[22:00] Bolo Ganesvoort: haha yeah sorry
[22:00] Aloe Lefavre: i thought you'd forgotten all about me!
[22:01] Bolo Ganesvoort: no of course not. i was just taking a little break
[22:01] Aloe Lefavre: ?
[22:01] Aloe Lefavre: that's all i get?
[22:01] Aloe Lefavre: after so many months!
[22:02] Bolo Ganesvoort: yeah i know. ive been really busy
[22:02] Aloe Lefavre: oh, don't worry. you don't have to tell me everything all at once...
[22:02] Aloe Lefavre: want to roll around on the flower?
[22:02] Bolo Ganesvoort: haha roll around on the flower? um ok.
[22:03] Aloe Lefavre: you know, for old times' sake...
[22:03] Bolo Ganesvoort: ah yes. the good old flower
[22:03] Aloe Lefavre: you do remember how to get here...
[22:03] Aloe Lefavre: ?
[22:03] Bolo Ganesvoort: you know its been so long... remind me?
[22:04] Aloe Lefavre: oh gees...
[22:04] Aloe Lefavre: just a sec
[22:05] Aloe Lefavre: hey stranger
[22:05] Aloe Lefavre: what happened to your hair?
[22:05] Bolo Ganesvoort: wild animal
[22:05] Aloe Lefavre: you gonna sit or what?
[22:05] Aloe Lefavre: nice
[22:06] Aloe Lefavre: little far away though... i might have to yell!
[22:06] Bolo Ganesvoort: haha
[22:06] Aloe Lefavre: ookay...
[22:06] Bolo Ganesvoort: eh i like it over here
[22:06] Aloe Lefavre: if that's how you're gonna be...
[22:06] Bolo Ganesvoort: it's a comfy spot
[22:07] Aloe Lefavre: uh huh
[22:07] Aloe Lefavre: so what, you get a real life girl or something?
[22:08] Bolo Ganesvoort: jealous?
[22:08] Aloe Lefavre: who me?
[22:08] Bolo Ganesvoort: haha i think you are
[22:08] Bolo Ganesvoort: its ok, you can admit it
[22:08] Bolo Ganesvoort: im a charming guy
[22:08] Aloe Lefavre: whatever.
[22:09] Aloe Lefavre: you know i've always got a lot of other friends
[22:09] Aloe Lefavre: who don't desert me for 6months!
[22:09] Aloe Lefavre: god, i even tried to find you in your first life
[22:09] Bolo Ganesvoort: well you know there's a very good reason for why i was gone for 6 months
[22:09] Bolo Ganesvoort: haha
[22:09] Aloe Lefavre: i was worried!
[22:09] Bolo Ganesvoort: dont worry
[22:10] Bolo Ganesvoort: i wont leave you high and dry again
[22:10] Aloe Lefavre: we'll see.
[22:10] Aloe Lefavre: maybe i will...
[22:11] Bolo Ganesvoort: ah!
[22:11] Bolo Ganesvoort: woah
[22:11] Bolo Ganesvoort: cool
[22:11] Bolo Ganesvoort: there's stuff down there
[22:11] Bolo Ganesvoort: whered you go?
[22:12] Bolo Ganesvoort: oh fly
[22:12] Bolo Ganesvoort: lets fly!
[22:13] Bolo Ganesvoort: hey aloe
[22:13] Bolo Ganesvoort: did you leave me too?
[22:14] Aloe Lefavre: slow poke!
[22:14] Aloe Lefavre: hurry up! i'm on the beach!
[21:32] Aloe Lefavre: bolo!
[21:33] Aloe Lefavre: it's been eons!
[21:33] Aloe Lefavre: i've missed my flying partner!
[21:33] Aloe Lefavre: bolo?
[21:36] Aloe Lefavre: you there ?
[21:40] Aloe Lefavre: coucou!
[21:45] Aloe Lefavre: bolo!!!!!
[21:47] Aloe Lefavre: ?
[21:47] Bolo Ganesvoort: hello
[21:47] Aloe Lefavre: hi!
[21:47] Aloe Lefavre: i thought you'd died or something!
[21:47] Aloe Lefavre: went back to your real life or something!
[21:48] Bolo Ganesvoort: ha yeah, just some technical difficulties
[21:48] Bolo Ganesvoort: whats going on?
[21:48] Aloe Lefavre: meet in our spot?
[21:50] Aloe Lefavre: bolo?
[21:51] Aloe Lefavre: look, if you're sick of me or something you could just say so...
[21:54] Aloe Lefavre: ?
[21:54] Second Life: User not online - message will be stored and delivered later.
[22:00] Bolo Ganesvoort: hello
[22:00] Aloe Lefavre: finally
[22:00] Bolo Ganesvoort: haha yeah sorry
[22:00] Aloe Lefavre: i thought you'd forgotten all about me!
[22:01] Bolo Ganesvoort: no of course not. i was just taking a little break
[22:01] Aloe Lefavre: ?
[22:01] Aloe Lefavre: that's all i get?
[22:01] Aloe Lefavre: after so many months!
[22:02] Bolo Ganesvoort: yeah i know. ive been really busy
[22:02] Aloe Lefavre: oh, don't worry. you don't have to tell me everything all at once...
[22:02] Aloe Lefavre: want to roll around on the flower?
[22:02] Bolo Ganesvoort: haha roll around on the flower? um ok.
[22:03] Aloe Lefavre: you know, for old times' sake...
[22:03] Bolo Ganesvoort: ah yes. the good old flower
[22:03] Aloe Lefavre: you do remember how to get here...
[22:03] Aloe Lefavre: ?
[22:03] Bolo Ganesvoort: you know its been so long... remind me?
[22:04] Aloe Lefavre: oh gees...
[22:04] Aloe Lefavre: just a sec
[22:05] Aloe Lefavre: hey stranger
[22:05] Aloe Lefavre: what happened to your hair?
[22:05] Bolo Ganesvoort: wild animal
[22:05] Aloe Lefavre: you gonna sit or what?
[22:05] Aloe Lefavre: nice
[22:06] Aloe Lefavre: little far away though... i might have to yell!
[22:06] Bolo Ganesvoort: haha
[22:06] Aloe Lefavre: ookay...
[22:06] Bolo Ganesvoort: eh i like it over here
[22:06] Aloe Lefavre: if that's how you're gonna be...
[22:06] Bolo Ganesvoort: it's a comfy spot
[22:07] Aloe Lefavre: uh huh
[22:07] Aloe Lefavre: so what, you get a real life girl or something?
[22:08] Bolo Ganesvoort: jealous?
[22:08] Aloe Lefavre: who me?
[22:08] Bolo Ganesvoort: haha i think you are
[22:08] Bolo Ganesvoort: its ok, you can admit it
[22:08] Bolo Ganesvoort: im a charming guy
[22:08] Aloe Lefavre: whatever.
[22:09] Aloe Lefavre: you know i've always got a lot of other friends
[22:09] Aloe Lefavre: who don't desert me for 6months!
[22:09] Aloe Lefavre: god, i even tried to find you in your first life
[22:09] Bolo Ganesvoort: well you know there's a very good reason for why i was gone for 6 months
[22:09] Bolo Ganesvoort: haha
[22:09] Aloe Lefavre: i was worried!
[22:09] Bolo Ganesvoort: dont worry
[22:10] Bolo Ganesvoort: i wont leave you high and dry again
[22:10] Aloe Lefavre: we'll see.
[22:10] Aloe Lefavre: maybe i will...
[22:11] Bolo Ganesvoort: ah!
[22:11] Bolo Ganesvoort: woah
[22:11] Bolo Ganesvoort: cool
[22:11] Bolo Ganesvoort: there's stuff down there
[22:11] Bolo Ganesvoort: whered you go?
[22:12] Bolo Ganesvoort: oh fly
[22:12] Bolo Ganesvoort: lets fly!
[22:13] Bolo Ganesvoort: hey aloe
[22:13] Bolo Ganesvoort: did you leave me too?
[22:14] Aloe Lefavre: slow poke!
[22:14] Aloe Lefavre: hurry up! i'm on the beach!
Monday, October 15, 2007
From Sam with love
Here's a letter from Sam to Noelle:
Hey Noelle,
How’s life treating you? I’m sorry that we didn’t get to see each other over Christmas break. Everything was just kind of hectic at the time and it was hard for me to really see anyone that I wanted to see. From what I heard from other people it sounds like nobody really got out much, which kind of sucks. I was thinking, if you’re going back home for spring break maybe we could go on a road-trip somewhere or something like that. It could be just you and me and Justin, or maybe just you and me if he’s not up for it. There’s this guy I’ve been hanging out with who’s kind of a druggie but he said that I could borrow his car over spring break if I wanted to because he’s taking a train back to Mexico for break. He said it will probably end up being cheaper than driving because of gas prices but I think that just being out on the open road for a week could be fun. Everything else here is pretty ok. Do you ever talk to Justin? I haven’t been keeping up with him as much as I’d like to but I imagine he’s probably having a pretty good time. I can see Justin as being the classy cool college guy. Anyway, let me know what else you’ve been up to. I miss you a lot.
-Sam
I'm feeling some desperation in Sam. I think he's probably in a pretty dark place after everything that has transpired, including having to leave his best friends as well as losing Elliot. It might be interesting if he was pittiable (is that a word? able to be pittied?) for a chunk of the play and then was able to overcome it all somehow. I don't know, just some thoughts.
Hey Noelle,
How’s life treating you? I’m sorry that we didn’t get to see each other over Christmas break. Everything was just kind of hectic at the time and it was hard for me to really see anyone that I wanted to see. From what I heard from other people it sounds like nobody really got out much, which kind of sucks. I was thinking, if you’re going back home for spring break maybe we could go on a road-trip somewhere or something like that. It could be just you and me and Justin, or maybe just you and me if he’s not up for it. There’s this guy I’ve been hanging out with who’s kind of a druggie but he said that I could borrow his car over spring break if I wanted to because he’s taking a train back to Mexico for break. He said it will probably end up being cheaper than driving because of gas prices but I think that just being out on the open road for a week could be fun. Everything else here is pretty ok. Do you ever talk to Justin? I haven’t been keeping up with him as much as I’d like to but I imagine he’s probably having a pretty good time. I can see Justin as being the classy cool college guy. Anyway, let me know what else you’ve been up to. I miss you a lot.
-Sam
I'm feeling some desperation in Sam. I think he's probably in a pretty dark place after everything that has transpired, including having to leave his best friends as well as losing Elliot. It might be interesting if he was pittiable (is that a word? able to be pittied?) for a chunk of the play and then was able to overcome it all somehow. I don't know, just some thoughts.
chat #4 - gretchen and justin
ty and molly found some fun stuff with justin and gretchen on sunday night. ideas for these two characters in the future???? i like that most of this could easily be a scene between them in person. nice stuff!!
FYI -- Next chat is WEDNESDAY 10-midnight!!!
justin ok, i'm here now
gretchen yay!
justin how are you tonight?
gretchen i'm pretty good. how are you?
justin same as always. a bit unsure, a bit relaxed, a bit worried (about others)
gretchen who are you worried about?
justin well, sam for one. but that's always. more presently, you know- what my parents are gonna say when i tell them about college and such. what sam will say, especially considering how he is now, etc.
justin how he is now about school, that is
justin you know, the all-encompassing everythings of life
gretchen you still haven't told him? or your parents? you have to soon. you can't keep lying to them
justin it's not lying, is it? when it's just temporary, i mean.
gretchen it's still lying. "not telling the full truth" is still lying
gretchen even if it's temportary
gretchen *temporary
justin well, i won't keep temportarally lying for much longer
justin *temporarily
justin ;)
justin anyways, i plan to make the big announcement any day now
gretchen well i hope so.... can i be there to see their reactions.
gretchen btw... you're a jerk
justin haha, just kidding beautiful
gretchen i guess i can forgive you
gretchen ) you called me beautiful. i love you
justin i'm just telling it like it is
gretchen awe
justin whose reactions were you hoping to see?
gretchen your parents... and sams. everyones!
justin it's going to cost you a leg and an arm for all those front-row tickets you know
gretchen it's worth it
justin anyhow, i'm not sure how safe it will be when i break it to the folks
justin things might explode
gretchen i'll use you as a shield. you can take the bulk of the blow
justin ha ha
gretchen what, you think i'm joking?
gretchen your parents will freak. i don't wanna get hit by any of that
justin that's why it won't be safe
gretchen which is why i'll hide behind you! and maybe i'll wear safety goggles and a bullet proof vest. and stand feet back. at least
justin at least.
justin but suppose the blast doth tear me limb from limb, good lady?
gretchen probably be more like . wait, where do you plan to tell them? i want to know how much space i have
gretchen than i'll give you a vest too
gretchen and goggles
justin oh, well sweet.
gretchen ;)
justin i'll make sure it's somewhere open, like a field or something.
gretchen good. maybe you should tell them over a megaphone. so the explosion won't hit you...as easily
justin for sam, on the other hand, we'll just need a small room that we can run out of an lock after i tell him. that way he can just burst from sheer confusion and we'll be safe from the splatter
justin perhaps. i'm not sure what the megaphone prices are these days
gretchen haha! I love it.
gretchen does it matter how much they are? it's your life we're talking about
justin i suppose. i'll need to scrape together what little i have left of my graduation money. and maybe take out a loan, depending on the price senario.
incidentally, that's another reason why i need to tell the parental unit soon- not much dinero left, you know?
gretchen i'lll help chip in. i'm as worried about your life as you are.
gretchen how did you plan to pay tuition?
justin well, my parents were mostly going to cover it. and i have some in an account, but that won't last forever
justin but i dont see my parents being willing to financially report their wayward son
gretchen no. neither do i. well, at least you've got more money now than you would have had you gone to university
justin i suppose. i'll need to get a job or something i guess eventually. i'm not exactly down with that either, though. but what else am i gonna do?
justin i don't know. i guess i need to figure out what i'm going to do if school isn't going to be it.
gretchen pick dandilions? i'm sure someone will pay you to clear out their yard...
justin hey, those dandelions rocked
justin there were so many
gretchen i agree. i loved them
justin think of how many dandelions i could get if i cleared out people's yards all the time? a bazillion, i bet
gretchen you should knock on doors and ask people. then i could decorate my room...
justin let's run away together and pick dandelions for the rest of our lives
gretchen okay
gretchen )
justin enough about me. how was your day?
gretchen oh, okay. Lisa's mad at me again. not even about anything specific. she was just in one of those moods. but other than that....my classes were good. i came right home after school. did homework... i found a new band! their called "the buggles"
gretchen that' s the extent of my exciting day
justin the buggles, eh?
justin what type of noise do they make?
gretchen they sing video killed the radio star.
gretchen i don't even know what genre it would be
justin oh, them. s pre-pop?
justin is lisa's attitude anything to worry about? or is it one of those things that passes like the weather?
gretchen sounds about right.
gretchen yeah, like the weather
gretchen she'll be back to normal tommorrow
justin good to hear. do you ever get tired of that kind of treatment, though?
gretchen oh all the time. but you get used to it. i basically just ignore her on those days.
gretchen and think of you
justin aw
gretchen it's the only thinkg that gets me through bad days
gretchen not that today was a bad day... but you always help make a day better
justin )
gretchen D
justin i know what you mean. think you maybe could be around for after i tell my parents?
gretchen sure. just remember everything that happens and tell it to me word for word. explosions and all
justin of course i will.
justin thanks
gretchen you're welcome.
gretchen now, if you don't mind. i need to go to bed. i have school tommorrow. and so do you ;)
justin haha, right.
justin well, goodnight. perhaps i shall call on you tomorrow, if your schedule permits?
gretchen please do. i'll be home at four
gretchen pm
gretchen not am
gretchen that would be dumb
justin yes, yes it would. four am calls are generally avoided
gretchen generally. but if it was you calling i probably wouldn't mind...
justin i'll remember that.
justin goodnight! i love you
gretchen but not too often
gretchen night! i love you too.
FYI -- Next chat is WEDNESDAY 10-midnight!!!
justin ok, i'm here now
gretchen yay!
justin how are you tonight?
gretchen i'm pretty good. how are you?
justin same as always. a bit unsure, a bit relaxed, a bit worried (about others)
gretchen who are you worried about?
justin well, sam for one. but that's always. more presently, you know- what my parents are gonna say when i tell them about college and such. what sam will say, especially considering how he is now, etc.
justin how he is now about school, that is
justin you know, the all-encompassing everythings of life
gretchen you still haven't told him? or your parents? you have to soon. you can't keep lying to them
justin it's not lying, is it? when it's just temporary, i mean.
gretchen it's still lying. "not telling the full truth" is still lying
gretchen even if it's temportary
gretchen *temporary
justin well, i won't keep temportarally lying for much longer
justin *temporarily
justin ;)
justin anyways, i plan to make the big announcement any day now
gretchen well i hope so.... can i be there to see their reactions.
gretchen btw... you're a jerk
justin haha, just kidding beautiful
gretchen i guess i can forgive you
gretchen ) you called me beautiful. i love you
justin i'm just telling it like it is
gretchen awe
justin whose reactions were you hoping to see?
gretchen your parents... and sams. everyones!
justin it's going to cost you a leg and an arm for all those front-row tickets you know
gretchen it's worth it
justin anyhow, i'm not sure how safe it will be when i break it to the folks
justin things might explode
gretchen i'll use you as a shield. you can take the bulk of the blow
justin ha ha
gretchen what, you think i'm joking?
gretchen your parents will freak. i don't wanna get hit by any of that
justin that's why it won't be safe
gretchen which is why i'll hide behind you! and maybe i'll wear safety goggles and a bullet proof vest. and stand feet back. at least
justin at least.
justin but suppose the blast doth tear me limb from limb, good lady?
gretchen probably be more like . wait, where do you plan to tell them? i want to know how much space i have
gretchen than i'll give you a vest too
gretchen and goggles
justin oh, well sweet.
gretchen ;)
justin i'll make sure it's somewhere open, like a field or something.
gretchen good. maybe you should tell them over a megaphone. so the explosion won't hit you...as easily
justin for sam, on the other hand, we'll just need a small room that we can run out of an lock after i tell him. that way he can just burst from sheer confusion and we'll be safe from the splatter
justin perhaps. i'm not sure what the megaphone prices are these days
gretchen haha! I love it.
gretchen does it matter how much they are? it's your life we're talking about
justin i suppose. i'll need to scrape together what little i have left of my graduation money. and maybe take out a loan, depending on the price senario.
incidentally, that's another reason why i need to tell the parental unit soon- not much dinero left, you know?
gretchen i'lll help chip in. i'm as worried about your life as you are.
gretchen how did you plan to pay tuition?
justin well, my parents were mostly going to cover it. and i have some in an account, but that won't last forever
justin but i dont see my parents being willing to financially report their wayward son
gretchen no. neither do i. well, at least you've got more money now than you would have had you gone to university
justin i suppose. i'll need to get a job or something i guess eventually. i'm not exactly down with that either, though. but what else am i gonna do?
justin i don't know. i guess i need to figure out what i'm going to do if school isn't going to be it.
gretchen pick dandilions? i'm sure someone will pay you to clear out their yard...
justin hey, those dandelions rocked
justin there were so many
gretchen i agree. i loved them
justin think of how many dandelions i could get if i cleared out people's yards all the time? a bazillion, i bet
gretchen you should knock on doors and ask people. then i could decorate my room...
justin let's run away together and pick dandelions for the rest of our lives
gretchen okay
gretchen )
justin enough about me. how was your day?
gretchen oh, okay. Lisa's mad at me again. not even about anything specific. she was just in one of those moods. but other than that....my classes were good. i came right home after school. did homework... i found a new band! their called "the buggles"
gretchen that' s the extent of my exciting day
justin the buggles, eh?
justin what type of noise do they make?
gretchen they sing video killed the radio star.
gretchen i don't even know what genre it would be
justin oh, them. s pre-pop?
justin is lisa's attitude anything to worry about? or is it one of those things that passes like the weather?
gretchen sounds about right.
gretchen yeah, like the weather
gretchen she'll be back to normal tommorrow
justin good to hear. do you ever get tired of that kind of treatment, though?
gretchen oh all the time. but you get used to it. i basically just ignore her on those days.
gretchen and think of you
justin aw
gretchen it's the only thinkg that gets me through bad days
gretchen not that today was a bad day... but you always help make a day better
justin )
gretchen D
justin i know what you mean. think you maybe could be around for after i tell my parents?
gretchen sure. just remember everything that happens and tell it to me word for word. explosions and all
justin of course i will.
justin thanks
gretchen you're welcome.
gretchen now, if you don't mind. i need to go to bed. i have school tommorrow. and so do you ;)
justin haha, right.
justin well, goodnight. perhaps i shall call on you tomorrow, if your schedule permits?
gretchen please do. i'll be home at four
gretchen pm
gretchen not am
gretchen that would be dumb
justin yes, yes it would. four am calls are generally avoided
gretchen generally. but if it was you calling i probably wouldn't mind...
justin i'll remember that.
justin goodnight! i love you
gretchen but not too often
gretchen night! i love you too.
Sunday, October 14, 2007
wonder what justin would think about this?
http://freegan.info/
maybe he decides to do this on a smaller scale (considering he's still living at home, eating his parent's food)...
wonder what sam would think about justing being a freegan...?
and sam's roommate, anthony....?
and gretchen...?
and noelle...?
maybe he decides to do this on a smaller scale (considering he's still living at home, eating his parent's food)...
wonder what sam would think about justing being a freegan...?
and sam's roommate, anthony....?
and gretchen...?
and noelle...?
character web
so here's one idea for how the characters may be linked. please let me know your thoughts! it's sure to change, but i thought you might like the visual for now..
a thought from Sam
See, if you think of reality like virtual reality, it all makes so much sense. We all make up the world -- we all imagine it and then we build it and then we share it and we keep it all together by believing in it. And then when we don't want to believe in it anymore -- when we decide we're dissatisfied with what we've made -- we start blaming each other and either destroying the world or trying to build another one. But the thing is, neither works until enough people jump on board and say it exists or it doesn't. Until then, we're just a bunch of lonely people complaining and dreaming without aim.
Saturday, October 13, 2007
Poet's Poems
Boy
You weren’t the first I’ve seen
losing some part of yourself
in the park.
It’s common for those
self-assured skeptics,
teenagers they’re called,
to wander in through the tunnel
they’ve marked as their own,
and heap scorn upon the
world they won’t change.
Our generation is skilled
at keeping still, gazing
at cosmos and drinking up
what they will, with
five senses.
But your stillness was beyond
a living still; your chest
put up no shivery fight
against the rain chill.
I read in the paper, later,
that you were an Elliot,
one of a few in this generation
of dying timeless titles.
But as I stood to consider
your night-soaked form,
you were no Elliot to me.
You were a boy,
turning cold,
and I knew you
wouldn’t want any
phone call made that
might save you.
You weren’t the first I’ve seen
losing some part of yourself
in the park.
It’s common for those
self-assured skeptics,
teenagers they’re called,
to wander in through the tunnel
they’ve marked as their own,
and heap scorn upon the
world they won’t change.
Our generation is skilled
at keeping still, gazing
at cosmos and drinking up
what they will, with
five senses.
But your stillness was beyond
a living still; your chest
put up no shivery fight
against the rain chill.
I read in the paper, later,
that you were an Elliot,
one of a few in this generation
of dying timeless titles.
But as I stood to consider
your night-soaked form,
you were no Elliot to me.
You were a boy,
turning cold,
and I knew you
wouldn’t want any
phone call made that
might save you.
Thursday, October 11, 2007
chat #3 - poet and jessie (2nd time)
marnie and molly spun this out wednesday night as poet and jessie.... supercool!
jessie hey
poet hello there
jessie how've ya been?
poet I have been pretty constant. How about you?
jessie exactly the same as yesterday.
jessie oh, wait, one exception. i now have a cat
poet Oh?
poet Elaborate!
jessie well let's see, she's small. she has a tail.... and a pink nose
jessie she's an orange tabby. and i named her midnight.
poet I love that. but only because it's ironic.
poet How did you fall upon midnight?
jessie actually i found her! she was sitting beside our trash can, so we took her in
poet I wonder if she knew someone would come for her. It's pretty strategic, isn't it? To sit down next to the most pathetic object she could find?
jessie very
poet well done, midnight.
jessie i think she knew. she certainly didn't seem surprised to see me. she's probably been scouting out my house for a week
poet Only cats can get away with stalking and be rewarded with room and board.
jessie no kidding. i wish i could be that cunning.
poet I'm sure you could be, if given the opportunity.
jessie hmmm.... i'll have to practice.
poet I could give you a scenario, if you wanted
jessie go for it
poet Let's say you had to find a really crafty way to......see me without a webcam.
poet How do you see someone halfway across the world?
jessie ooh okay, i would first off i would search your name on google. and then upon realising that there are waaay too manymeagans, i would fly halfway across the world and knock on everyones door and ask if meagan lives there, and if so, if that meagan is a poet
poet Now THAT'S determination.
poet you don't need any practice, apparently!
jessie unfortunatly it would take me multiple years to complete, and even then i might not find you
poet yeah, and by then you might not even be interested in our little chats anymore.
jessie naw, i can't see that ever happening
poet me either.
jessie (emotocon here?)
poet Well put. I can't bring myself to use them though...
jessie why's that?
poet I don't like bossing them around. Like, "EXPRESS ME NOW!"
poet Because it's something I can easily do myself.
jessie that's awesome.
jessie you can easily express yourself now?
poet well.....as much as I need to.
jessie but not as much as you could
poet perhaps, perhaps.
poet I like to stay ambiguous.
jessie i heard somewhere that in the "natural law" theory, lying is wrong because it is abusing the faculty of speech, because your voice was created for you by god so that you can communicate the truth, and say what's on you mind
jessie not that you're lying, it just came to mind
poet It's interesting enough. I guess it's true. But if it WAS true, that means imagination is wrong, too.
poet because children pretending they're elephants, and me pretending I have a dog, it's all necessary distraction from the world.
jessie this is true. mind you, your imagination is, at the time, what you believe. it's what's on your mind, and what you believe to be true. therefore, by expressing it, it is what you believe to be true and is therefore not a lie
jessie and they think that's okay
poet well, then I think I could buy it.
poet I think.
jessie i'm still not sure. alot of their other beliefs just don't make any sense
poet really? I'm sure it makes sense to them.
poet or else they'd be abusing language, or what have you.
jessie and it's what a great deal of the catholic church is based on
jessie oh, of course it makes sense to them! doesn't mean it's what's right
jessie the whole theory is about letting nature do what it will, and if you interfere with that in any way it's a sin. no exceptions
poet Well, then I think we're the sinners here. It's not like nature would ever have handed us the internet, would it?
jessie but maybe it was natural that humans were to invent it
poet Hm. What about clones?
jessie good question. but then the whole "playing god" thing comes into play
poet true. It's best to avoid that entirely, isn't it?
poet let's talk more about midnight,
jessie that it is. mind you, if it's never discussed, then how does anyone know what to believe?
poet our guy, of course. Our conscience. Our Jiminy Cricket.
jessie but some might say that your conscience is based on influences from your culture.
not that that's what i think, just saying.
poet some might say that. but those are people who write the books I'll never read.
jessie so true. i feel the same
poet Those books just aren't.....
poetic.
ha.
jessie no they aren't. you should write one! that's understandable
poet Let's write something together.
jessie okay!
what about?
poet No idea. any particular inspiration?
jessie uhh... zombies?
poet Your heart doesn't seem to be in the zombie idea. (Unless you really want to...)
jessie haha, no. it's just the first thing that came to mind
jessie that's really wierd
jessie i creep myself out
poet no worries, I love zombies!
poet but they've been done.
jessie yay! me too.
poet we were born to be more original than that, I think, you and me.
jessie have you seen any good zombie movies?
jessie more original thatn zomibes?
poet funny you should ask. I have quite an affinity for zombie film.
jessie *than
jessie *zombies
jessie which ones????
poet Evil Dead, twenty eight Days Later, Dawn of the Dead....it's all excellent undeath.
poet you?
jessie ah yes. soo good. i just watched shock waves the other day. nazi zombies. and all the ones you mentioned, plus night of the living dead, zombie, land of the dead, shawn of the dead
poet that's quite a repetoire. I wish we could watch them together.
jessie me too. i'll just have to watch them and pretend that you and your dog are there
poet oh right, I forgot about my faux pet. I have given him a name, by the way.
jessie oh?
poet yes. Percival.
jessie very nice. what was the inspiration for that?
poet Well, I was thinking that if I had a dog, I would want him to be one of those dogs that lives through everything, thick and thin, worms and all...
poet he would perservere.
poet Percival.
jessie clever. much better than midnight.
poet Oh, I don't think that's true. Midnight brings up some fond memories.
jessie of...
poet all my good nights. And bad ones, but those aren't the fond memories, of course. Do the best parts of your day happen at night? I think that's the case for me.
jessie i know exactly what you mean. i love the nighttime. one of my favourite things to do is sit outside and stare at the night sky. and listen to george harrisons song "here comes the moon"
poet sounds pretty groovy.
jessie it is. it really mellows you out
poet perhaps I shall do it in your honor sometime.
jessie i highly recommend it.
poet good to know.
jessie what are your best night memories?
poet Well, right before we moved here, I spent a lot of nights packing. And of course that was sad. But it forced me to look over every piece of my life I've ever kept.
poet and every piece you keep, you keep for a reason.
jessie seriously, write a book
poet that's exactly it -- we need to do it together!
jessie i don't think you need me.
jessie i'm gonna have to write that down
poet of course I need you.
jessie pff. i'll add nothing. i'm no poet, poet
poet not true. you've just never referred to yourself as one. but I know it's in you!
poet A collaboration -- that's what we need.
jessie i'll do my best. maybe i'll get some inspiration tonight as i sleep. speaking of which...
i'm exhausted
poet fair enough. but you get those ideas stirring, will you?
jessie oh i will. don't worry. night!
poet Good. Ta!
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jessie hey
poet hello there
jessie how've ya been?
poet I have been pretty constant. How about you?
jessie exactly the same as yesterday.
jessie oh, wait, one exception. i now have a cat
poet Oh?
poet Elaborate!
jessie well let's see, she's small. she has a tail.... and a pink nose
jessie she's an orange tabby. and i named her midnight.
poet I love that. but only because it's ironic.
poet How did you fall upon midnight?
jessie actually i found her! she was sitting beside our trash can, so we took her in
poet I wonder if she knew someone would come for her. It's pretty strategic, isn't it? To sit down next to the most pathetic object she could find?
jessie very
poet well done, midnight.
jessie i think she knew. she certainly didn't seem surprised to see me. she's probably been scouting out my house for a week
poet Only cats can get away with stalking and be rewarded with room and board.
jessie no kidding. i wish i could be that cunning.
poet I'm sure you could be, if given the opportunity.
jessie hmmm.... i'll have to practice.
poet I could give you a scenario, if you wanted
jessie go for it
poet Let's say you had to find a really crafty way to......see me without a webcam.
poet How do you see someone halfway across the world?
jessie ooh okay, i would first off i would search your name on google. and then upon realising that there are waaay too manymeagans, i would fly halfway across the world and knock on everyones door and ask if meagan lives there, and if so, if that meagan is a poet
poet Now THAT'S determination.
poet you don't need any practice, apparently!
jessie unfortunatly it would take me multiple years to complete, and even then i might not find you
poet yeah, and by then you might not even be interested in our little chats anymore.
jessie naw, i can't see that ever happening
poet me either.
jessie (emotocon here?)
poet Well put. I can't bring myself to use them though...
jessie why's that?
poet I don't like bossing them around. Like, "EXPRESS ME NOW!"
poet Because it's something I can easily do myself.
jessie that's awesome.
jessie you can easily express yourself now?
poet well.....as much as I need to.
jessie but not as much as you could
poet perhaps, perhaps.
poet I like to stay ambiguous.
jessie i heard somewhere that in the "natural law" theory, lying is wrong because it is abusing the faculty of speech, because your voice was created for you by god so that you can communicate the truth, and say what's on you mind
jessie not that you're lying, it just came to mind
poet It's interesting enough. I guess it's true. But if it WAS true, that means imagination is wrong, too.
poet because children pretending they're elephants, and me pretending I have a dog, it's all necessary distraction from the world.
jessie this is true. mind you, your imagination is, at the time, what you believe. it's what's on your mind, and what you believe to be true. therefore, by expressing it, it is what you believe to be true and is therefore not a lie
jessie and they think that's okay
poet well, then I think I could buy it.
poet I think.
jessie i'm still not sure. alot of their other beliefs just don't make any sense
poet really? I'm sure it makes sense to them.
poet or else they'd be abusing language, or what have you.
jessie and it's what a great deal of the catholic church is based on
jessie oh, of course it makes sense to them! doesn't mean it's what's right
jessie the whole theory is about letting nature do what it will, and if you interfere with that in any way it's a sin. no exceptions
poet Well, then I think we're the sinners here. It's not like nature would ever have handed us the internet, would it?
jessie but maybe it was natural that humans were to invent it
poet Hm. What about clones?
jessie good question. but then the whole "playing god" thing comes into play
poet true. It's best to avoid that entirely, isn't it?
poet let's talk more about midnight,
jessie that it is. mind you, if it's never discussed, then how does anyone know what to believe?
poet our guy, of course. Our conscience. Our Jiminy Cricket.
jessie but some might say that your conscience is based on influences from your culture.
not that that's what i think, just saying.
poet some might say that. but those are people who write the books I'll never read.
jessie so true. i feel the same
poet Those books just aren't.....
poetic.
ha.
jessie no they aren't. you should write one! that's understandable
poet Let's write something together.
jessie okay!
what about?
poet No idea. any particular inspiration?
jessie uhh... zombies?
poet Your heart doesn't seem to be in the zombie idea. (Unless you really want to...)
jessie haha, no. it's just the first thing that came to mind
jessie that's really wierd
jessie i creep myself out
poet no worries, I love zombies!
poet but they've been done.
jessie yay! me too.
poet we were born to be more original than that, I think, you and me.
jessie have you seen any good zombie movies?
jessie more original thatn zomibes?
poet funny you should ask. I have quite an affinity for zombie film.
jessie *than
jessie *zombies
jessie which ones????
poet Evil Dead, twenty eight Days Later, Dawn of the Dead....it's all excellent undeath.
poet you?
jessie ah yes. soo good. i just watched shock waves the other day. nazi zombies. and all the ones you mentioned, plus night of the living dead, zombie, land of the dead, shawn of the dead
poet that's quite a repetoire. I wish we could watch them together.
jessie me too. i'll just have to watch them and pretend that you and your dog are there
poet oh right, I forgot about my faux pet. I have given him a name, by the way.
jessie oh?
poet yes. Percival.
jessie very nice. what was the inspiration for that?
poet Well, I was thinking that if I had a dog, I would want him to be one of those dogs that lives through everything, thick and thin, worms and all...
poet he would perservere.
poet Percival.
jessie clever. much better than midnight.
poet Oh, I don't think that's true. Midnight brings up some fond memories.
jessie of...
poet all my good nights. And bad ones, but those aren't the fond memories, of course. Do the best parts of your day happen at night? I think that's the case for me.
jessie i know exactly what you mean. i love the nighttime. one of my favourite things to do is sit outside and stare at the night sky. and listen to george harrisons song "here comes the moon"
poet sounds pretty groovy.
jessie it is. it really mellows you out
poet perhaps I shall do it in your honor sometime.
jessie i highly recommend it.
poet good to know.
jessie what are your best night memories?
poet Well, right before we moved here, I spent a lot of nights packing. And of course that was sad. But it forced me to look over every piece of my life I've ever kept.
poet and every piece you keep, you keep for a reason.
jessie seriously, write a book
poet that's exactly it -- we need to do it together!
jessie i don't think you need me.
jessie i'm gonna have to write that down
poet of course I need you.
jessie pff. i'll add nothing. i'm no poet, poet
poet not true. you've just never referred to yourself as one. but I know it's in you!
poet A collaboration -- that's what we need.
jessie i'll do my best. maybe i'll get some inspiration tonight as i sleep. speaking of which...
i'm exhausted
poet fair enough. but you get those ideas stirring, will you?
jessie oh i will. don't worry. night!
poet Good. Ta!
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